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Chindon Malay.
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Friday, April 24, 2009.

This is what actually happens when tutorial ended early =DD

So basically I end up not going for the party. Dont. Ask why. Its been hardly a week in school and here me and classmates were already having hilarious jokes. And inside jokes too! And today was the most bestest day amongst the rest in the week. It all started with a convo with Shiyi last night. I asked her how to say this in mandarin; never entertain me. Cause Keane (Chinese camp-mate) speaks fluent malay and whenever our friends were talking crap, he'll say "tak layan siaaa" and I'll be soooo envious of him cause I've been wanting to speak in multiLanguage! Hahahahaa. So last night I kept asking Shiyi how to say this and that in mandarin. And she told me its more convenient for both of us for me to learn the next day when we have lessons together.

So today in class, I had my whole modules sitting beside Shiyi learning few phrases of mandarin. We were supposed to end all our modules at 4pm but we have Library Introduction thingy 4pm to 5pm. So while waited for lecturer in the Lecture Theatre, I swear I felt like I wanna pee. Than I out of randomness I said, "Wo yao pee laaaa" and Ammelia corrected me saying, "Xiao pian" so I said "Wo yao siao pian" and not realising at that point of time the place was so quiet and no matter how low i said it, it feels like I was screaming the words out. For having sucha wonderful classmates, they laughed at me. Then I forgot who told me that there's other class too. Thats when I turned around to see the chinese girls from the other class giggling. -.-

By the end of the day I know quite a few not so useful phrases. Such as "mei you li wo" "ni mei you ni mao (only L02 knows, inside joke!)" "ni mei you cin cao (i created that one! -.-)" "chuo ni de kong ke" "hen-re/hen-ley" "hen ke ai (me and asidah kept using this phrase over cute chinese guys who walks pass us after sch just now =DD) " "hen ke lian" "mei you li mao" hahahahaa. Im soooo gonna learn more. Especially rich in vulgarities! HO HO HO! 1L02! You guys rock I swear! =DD

Pssssst ShiYi! Wo ye ai ni! Cen de! Wo mei you pian ni laaa! *winks!*

"I swear Im missing them looooooooots =(("

Sunday, April 19, 2009.

Specially dedicated to my two best MAN buddy .. My beloved father and my beloved buddy colleague; Lee. I know that its hard to feel how you feel. I know that simply by saying "I know how you feel .." or "I understand how you feel .." wont change the situation or make the whole situation better. Neither would they be solved. Seeing the two of you asking for the littlest tiniest simplest favour from myself almost brought me to tears. I would be happy to agree onto it knowing that I could be of a helper. But seeing you guys in this state got me worried. Much more worried than I should have been.

Daddy.

You have been the best. Not because you're my father and Im your daughter thing that I said those comment. But its because you have been so supportive and motivating throughout my 17 years of breathing. I've seen a lot of father wanting so much for their children to do well so that they dont have to worry about getting retired. But you're different. You want me to do well, my best. Only because you dont want me to end up like you. No one to support you. Not even your 6 elder siblings. When they could support and afford for your 2 younger ones. I couldnt judge on how unfair that would be tho cause I dont get the whole story.

ANYWAYS ..

You want me to have a successful career, a bright future of my own. Without yourself interfering. You dont want to be in the picture, you dont care about anything as long as all your four precious girls are in good hands. You're willing to take passengers along the streets while sending me to work. Desperate for incomes. Driving for 2 or 3 days straight not once coming home. Waking up as early as dawn for bookings. BUT. Pushing away your "small reward" from my monthly pay. It upsets me everytime you kept rejecting them. Its even more upsetting that I'll keep offering you, knowing that you'll still push them away.

SIGH ..

Im sorry for your sour past, Pa. But I can promise you one thing. That I will strive till the end. I will give my best, definitely my all. I shall take good care of you and momma once Im big and mature enough to afford everything needed. You will be in good hands, mine and your 3 other girls. I hope I will keep up to my words. I dont want to end up like aunts and uncs making empty promises. Im not holding any hatred or grudge or anger towards any of them. Part of my blood contain theirs too. Not interested to elaborate on that. ILOVEYOU, PA. Those are just words. I know. But those are words that comes from the heart, no longer the mouth anymore. Sincerely, Pa *smiles*

And Lee, I owe you countless thanks for being the buddy at work. You'll always be my buddy, 24/7.

That place had been upside down, claimed a few former colleagues. Dont wanna know, dont care. *Already know anyways!* Told cha, Lee -.- Tsk. Had a nice small talk with him through SMS this morning. And looks like what I said was obviously true! That place needed Marlie to keep 'em stable. Now that Im gone, everything's upside down. Tsk. HA HA HA HA! =DD

Song of inspiration; Right Here by Brandy.

[Intro]

When you feel your hearts guarded,

And you see the breaks starting,

When the clouds are far departed,

You'll be right here with me.

[Darkchild & Brandy]

B rock...

Darkchild..

We back..

You'll be right here with me

[Bridge]

You'll be right here with me

oh, oh [x16]

You'll be right here with me

[Verse 1]

When your life is going to fast,

off the train tracks

I can slow it down, oh

just when you think your bout to turn back

scared you might crash

I'll be your ground, oh

[Chorus]

Oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
And you see the brakes started,

And when the clouds above Departed,

You'll be right here with me,

And when your tears are dry from crying,

And when the worlds turned silent,

So when the clouds above Departed,

You will be right here with me,

Oh oh [Repeat x10]

I will be right here with you

you'll be right here with me

[Repeat]

[Verse 2]

When your trapped and there's just no key,

And you can't breathe,

I breathe for you,

The fire's got you down on both knees,

And the walls are closing in but I will,

Break it through,

And when you feel alone,

I'm a be at home,

Whenevers comes and go,

You know I got you,

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

I will be here right beside you,

Every step you take (yea),

I will be your strength your shelter,

Shield you from the rain,

[Repeat]

[Chorus]

(oh when you feel),

oh when you feel your hearts guarded,

and when you see the brakes started,

and when the clouds above Departed,

you'll be right here with me (right here),

and when your tears are dry from crying,

and when the worlds turned silent,

so when the clouds above Departed,

you will be right here with me,

I will be right here with you,

You'll be right here with me

Thursday, April 16, 2009.

[Waaaahlaaaao Jem! Hahahaa so fierce =DDD]

The Induction Programme (IP) wasnt as hard as I thought its gonna be. I even texted Lee now and then during the programme for being a coward. HA HA HA. But like what Lee had claimed, everythings gonna go smoothly fine if you believe in it. Thankyou Lee for your support =DD

During the IP, I was a totally different person. I wasnt that random shy girl who came for IP for her course. Im rather more to the enthusiastic girl who is cheering and supporting her mates all the way during activities and game on that day. I was confused for who I was at that point of time but at the same time, relieved. That Im not shy. Even for this particular game my class was divided into two and I was giving two solutions to my team. As I was explaining, the other team didnt know how to solve the problem and heard me explaining. So they go, "Marlie! Marlie! Eh how to solve!?" =D

Maybe I've grown. Mentally. Maybe I know being shy wont help. Coward. Maybe being the voice in the group brings confidence in the rest to voice up too. PERHAPS. Perhaps I was right. Perhaps I've grown much more mature than I was before. Mentally. Perhaps the FOC made me who I am now, open up to people easily. Perhaps I owe alot to FOC. Perhaps at that point of time when I decided to be more open and voice out what I thought of was right. A good decision. Im happy. Im happy to know that I've been making the right choices. Im pretty much satisfy with myself. =)

I've gotten my time-table. Im not gonna complaint cause I think its managable? ^_^

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Monday, April 13, 2009.

Im scared Im scared Im scared Im scared Im scared. Actually. Im not scared. Im just exaggerating. HA HA HA! Im just nervous. Ngee Ann is like 5 times bigger than Fajar. How am I gonna find my way around. I know. I know there'll be help around but could I keep in mind of the routes in school? I dont think so. Sighs.

Looking at Hanim Athira Syuu Amira Izni Affan Joycelin and Syahira excited about their first day in school got me really concerned and much more worried about mine. Im just afraid that my first day might turn out not as memorable as theirs. -.- A good and sweet one that is.

I already missing Sue from work. =( And I miss going to Christian Loubotin every breaktime. =((

Sentosa was great. I had fun. We(mostly Horus/BigBirds) cheered at the Vivo rooftop when the SP people finished cheering. And our cheering was satisfying enough. At least to me, I am satisfied. =D We definitely got their attention. HAH.

Im going to change my perspective of live and the way I see things now. Im getting older by every second and every second counts. Im already seventeen. I hope I'll act on my own words and thought. I hope. Its really something Im looking forward to this year. Actually, more to next year, 2010. A nice year. But lets just give myself a chance and start as an advance =DDD

I've yet to elaborate what Im driving at for the last two posts *wide smiles*

Friday, April 10, 2009.

Horus during the 4D3N camp. Spot me =DDD

The past two days was a day well spent with two beloved people. Yesterday was a movie date; Confession of A Shopaholic at Lido with Tay Ah-Jie. We talked a lot. Basically just anything that we could talk about. About just anything under the sun. I swear it was easy to share things with Kak Adina. We talked. We walked. We ate ice cream. We laughed. We (more to Tay Ah-Jie) disturb people. We read magazine. Tay Ah-Jie agreed that I dressed up like bollywood. She even insist on me having a bollywood name; Anita. Which I strongly disagree. And we end up with Loubotin. HA HA HA HA HA! Ouhh bumped into Shahida bby! Imissher siaaaaaaaa! HEEEEEEE. Mark met us at night after work. Mark Ta-Ker. Accompanied Tay Ah-Jie to get her extension done then we separated to head home. Advance thanks to Mark Ta-Ker for the cd =DD

READ; NISA, SCREAM! Today, I was sent to Juicy Couture. HA HA HA! Short of man power. Two on medical leave. So they got one staff from Jo Malone and one staff from Club Monaco; which was me, to work at Juicy Couture for the day. It was fun la working there what more with this funny staff; Rachel. But the disadvantage is, I was kinda lost in there. I didnt know what to do despite knowing that serving is the priority in retail. But seriously speaking, it was as if I was on an unknown planet. Dont know where I was. I was standing there waiting for people to approach me instead of me approaching them. Cause, unlike Club Monaco, it was soooo crowded and I dont know which customer to approach first. Silly me!

But overall I managed to open my own bill and thats satisfying enough. The best thing that happened today was, it would be my last day working with Soraya since Sue having off days tomorrow and the day after. (No thats not the best thing.. here comes the best thing..) Anhdie let use go for our break together since there's enough staff on the shopfloor. Sue decided to treat me to Ayam Penyet at Lucky Plaza since we wont work together anymore. It was touching and still is. Two days straight that beloved people treat me =DD I will miss those times when we dont care about the presence of customers and we laughed our asses off! Everything about Marlie+Sue is just too funny. I swear we cant meet! Once we see each other we'll get crazy! Hahaha. Noraini and Haliff are great colleagues too. I felt weak when Sue pleaded me not to resign. How could I? Two places. One path. One heart. And my heart says school. Education. Bright future. But of course. I wont forget these wonderful people who have guided me well throughout my work experience. i've learnt alot. Mostly from Tay Adina. =DDD I'll keep you guys in mind ((:

Sentosaaaaa tomorrow with fellow FOCians! Im hoping for the better! =DD

Wednesday, April 08, 2009.

Had shipment last night and what luck me and Haliff had that Joyce was working. Hahaha! I didnt mean anything laa but honestly speaking .. Okayy I shant start. Joyce really is a nice Supervisor .. Just.

So father fetched me and Haliff from work since we ended the shipment stocks around 11.30pm? But this time father would be smiling from ear to ear cause I asked father to charge me the fare and I'd claim from company. Hey, they made us work OT and I dont see the need for father to fetch me home for free. Hmmmmm.

Today! Is the day I have been waiting for since forever! At last. Hahaha. Hope the day goes smoothly as planned. Confession of a Shopaholic with Tay Ah-Jie is craving foooooooooooor! ILOVETAYADINA!

I cant wait for school. I see everyone around me getting excited. Im excited too just a bit of nervous and worried. Worried I'd lost my way in the campus like how I lost my way out from the camp. -.-

Maybe I've been lying to myself. Maybe I've been afraid, coward. Maybe I've been selfish, strong-headed. Maybe I've not been opening-up to myself and others. Maybe I've been over-protective of myself and my feelings. PERHAPS. Perhaps, its time for me to open up and experience what life had given me. What fate has laid down for me, present and/or future. Perhaps, I should think or see at different angle. Dont have to be the same point of view, everytime. Perhaps .. Its time. Time for me to act and think mature.

-I'll elaborate what Im driving at, one day. Bye =D

Saturday, April 04, 2009.

I've grabbed the mass dance vedio from Robert's page at facebook. Go see! [Click here!] HA HA HA HA! I screwed up a couple of times but I must say I've improved when we danced at ECP outing! WOOOOO! YAAAAAY =DDD

Im looking forward to the sentosa mass outing. I dont know why. And Jaivin's whining about the fact he found three mates who had the same course as him. Out of three only one the he's close to. And here I am havnet found my schoolmate yet -.-

School of Engineering (SoE) is at block 50 or one of the courses in SoE is at block 50 I forgot. Which is the dirtiest block. Wait. maybe I should emphasize on the word dirtiest a bit more. "DIRTIEST" block. O.o HA HA. Naaah, I wouldnt want to scare the innocent people in the same school cause I swear Im starting to freak myself out. HA HA HA. Just dont think far. Dont let it get to you. =O

Anyways..

Haliff have been cheering me up at work recently. Without him noticing it. He's the type thats all hyper and cheerful and crappy and stuff laaa. Glad to have him, Sue and Noo with me by my side. And not forgetting Ah-Tay Jie for 24/7 welcoming me to your shop everytime I dont know where to go during my break. Thankyou Ryan for welcoming me too and entertaining me with your "horny" jokes O.o

I cant wait to end work, honestly speaking. Im too fatigued. Im gonna give myself a one-week break before school starts. Im unreasonable excited for school to start in less than two weeks time. LMGT, here I come =DDD

Thursday, April 02, 2009.

Happy Belated 17th Birthday to me! Hahaha! I spent my birthday eve with the KBGs. Thanks for the surprise and pleasant cake everyone. On my birthday itself, I had to work morning shift. Sad. But met Ira and Zura and coincidentally Din was nearby the shop. We headed to MSQ and then Zura and Ira wanted to hang out at Esplanade while Din when to meet his friends and I went home, sisters waiting for the cake ceremony -.-

Imissgerlfys =(

Anhdie, the store manager bought me a small cake. Thanks Anhdie =D Thankyou everyone in store for wishing. Thanks for the birthday wishes through friendster, facebook, msn or even sms! Especially Kak Adina Tay for calling up in the middle of the night. Iloveyouuu! Thankyou for the gifts, dear gifters! Hahaha.

Lee dropped by my work place yesterday. He looked awful. I was worried when he told me he was sick everytime we kept in touch. But yesterday was much much worst. He looked worst than a zombie. God, I dont know what else to say, Lee. All I can say is everyone experience difficulties in life. Hardship. Its part and parcel of life. Just endure a bit more, please. Im not begging you. Im asking you to be strong, I know you are. Just be stronger, Lee. I've missed you alot after you left yesterday. Do take good care of yourself or Im seriously gonna destroy and damage your botox surgery!

Btw, FOC reunion outing changed from 10th to 11th April. I hope its gonna be worth and exciting. And I wonder who's "one of the crew" who tagged me? There's countless of crews! But I cant agree more with the tagger. HA HA HA HA!

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