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BONJOUR.

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Chindon Malay.
31st March.
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Saturday, May 31, 2008.


Should I blog about today? Hmmmm. Sofieeeeeee!

People always assume things the way they see it. Like shouldnt they look for the facts behind it first? Im not angry nor am I blaming or accusing anyone. Im just curious. Why does people's mind always insist on believing in something which they're unsure of? Is it because they're so used to insisting on something that they're so unsure of? Idk. Well, what do you think? Heh.

Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around you, around you. (:

There's something I wanna make it clear to everyone, but Im not sure if now's the right time. I'll definitely say it here but I'll wait for the right time. Promise. XD

Where's my 'hang-on-the-phone' companion?

Thursday, May 29, 2008.

Thought of studying with Nisa yesterday. But it was drizzling in the morning and we postponed it. Somehow last minute wasnt such a bad idea ay, Nisa? Hahaha! The rain started to reduce and Nisa was feeling bored and wanted so much to go out. So we went to Woodlands Civic Library. We couldnt find a spot but after making a few rounds, we manage to squeeze ourselves into a table of four but there was one when we arrive. So we just grab a chair and sit. Ok I could have sworn that I've put my phone to a silent mode. But you guessed it right! "Forever by Chris Brown" just played from no where and I can still look up for a second and it took me ages to realize it was mine. Hahahah! It wasnt loud la, just.. LOUD! I know I know! Others confirm, kooooopitiam! Hahahah! That was sooo embarrassing. Grrrrrr! So decided to do only Math for yesterday. I shant cramp myself by starting to revise all seven subjects at once. Im gonna do my Bio and Chem if possible tomorrow. Im welcoming anyone who cares to be my companion. For the biggest examination sake? ^_^ After that went to starbucks plaza, met Shahiddin Hazura and Wan there. Hang out after mugging. Wasnt the kind of hang out I was expecting. But whatever. Syahira came later. Friend sent us home. Thankyou, friend. =D

meYOUandTHEdancefloor. (:

Im looking forward to saturday. Are you? ^^

[Humour Part I]
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
so.................
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
skarang sat sape ikot nie?
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
mcm gitu tak blaja sak
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
haha
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
klua suda
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
haha
- m A r L i E . - says:
ok
- m A r L i E . - says:
wait
- m A r L i E . - says:
now im totally confused
- m A r L i E . - says:
haha
- m A r L i E . - says:
what you want to do on sat?
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
dunno la
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
want to study or go out?
- m A r L i E . - says:
thts why i ask you
- m A r L i E . - says:
i have no idea
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
alaaa
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
now all no idea
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
haha
- m A r L i E . - says:
you want to ajak sape?
- m A r L i E . - says:
dont gv me the DONNO answer
- m A r L i E . - says:
hahah
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
..........
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
tak tau
- m A r L i E . - says:
ok
- m A r L i E . - says:
we go out with them, then we go our separate ways ah
- m A r L i E . - says:
problem nye
- m A r L i E . - says:
after separate with them
- m A r L i E . - says:
tk kan kite due je sak
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
haha
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
aku anything
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
biler nak separate ngan dorang
- m A r L i E . - says:
bile _____ treating her to movie
- m A r L i E . - says:
hahah
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
ler
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
aku iingatkan nak ngok movie...........
- m A r L i E . - says:
sape?
- m A r L i E . - says:
you oso wanna watch movie?
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
ye la
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
abe nak uat ape
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
slalu aku klua ngok movie
- m A r L i E . - says:
hahha
- m A r L i E . - says:
aku broke. *mintk sympathy*
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
ler

[Humour Part II]
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
haha
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
mampos uh
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
the fitess shall survive per
- m A r L i E . - says:
hhahah
- m A r L i E . - says:
so cruel siaa
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
haha
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
so amcm?
- m A r L i E . - says:
aku nk blaja, tapi kau nk movies
- m A r L i E . - says:
both? confirm kau tk blh sak
- m A r L i E . - says:
hahahha
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
aku blh uh
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
but mcm akward
- m A r L i E . - says:
whch part awkward?
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
let say
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
gi movie
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
aku pakai lawa2
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
abe kalo blaja aku pakai baju umah
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
so takkan nak pakai lawa2 gi movie pas tu gi library
- m A r L i E . - says:
haha
- m A r L i E . - says:
ok ah, since i want to see my bf wears nicely kan, movies than
- m A r L i E . - says:
how?
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
ouh
Rosetta Lamperouge says:
ok

Assholes!^^

Tuesday, May 27, 2008.

Saturday
I wont say much about my Mid-Year results. One word, disappointing. Somehow I wont let my disappointment make me sad and control my life. Afiqah was definitely right. And still is. Must have faith. Insya'Allah, can make it. =D
Went out with Shasah in the morning today to celebrate her 11th birthday in advance since I got Malay Paper on her birthday. Confirm after the paper I got no mood whatsoever. Haahah! Just the Marlie you guys didnt know. Hehh. Walked around lot 1 at 9 plus where the shops are not opened yet since she insisted. We have prata for breakfast at the new Food Junction while waiting for certain shops to start their business. After spending my savings for the pampered birthday kiddo, met Linn and mom. Made our way to Regent Height and soaked in the cooling pool. Aaahhhh. Nice and relaxing. Hahahah! But Im glad Shashs enjoyed her advance celebration with me.

The journey home, I was reminded of late gramps. Somehow its the moment where I missed him much much more than I ever had. Its like I was eager to see him again. Only, I know its impossible. All I do during the ride home was to stare out of the window of the cab. Coz I dno what else can be done.

Sunday
Went for breakfast with family at Al-Azhar. Afterwards sent Sofie to Jurong Library. Then then then, jeng jeng jeng! Hahahaha! Bought a new phone. Not boasting here okayy, just to tell you guys how excited I am. After the loooong wait! I got an N81. Wooohooooo! Hahaha. I thought its just a normal N-series with the same as other N-series. But I was wrong. Its actually much much much better la deyy. Thankyou Dad. Iloveyou.

Monday
So today's the Malay O Level paper. I was expecting a real, hard, fucked up paper. But I guess from my prescription you can tell it was kind'dof managable. Hell yeaa. Was glad it turned out that way. Lets just hope I'll obtain an A after the looooong period of getting B's and C's. But somehow, there's still oral and listening more to go. So I will do my best in both and I'll definitely give my all. =D


Friday, May 23, 2008.

Sports day did not turned out like how I'd expected it to be. New house means new mates too. Was looking forward for a sporting mates but guess I expected too much from Spinner. We certainly didnt give our best for cheering. I was so angry with those who just sat there when asked to cheer. Like wtf? Whatever ah, luckily there are quite a number of strong athletes to help Spinner get its points. Suhairi and Farhan are just the best of the best. Certainly. ^^

Nice shot Rine! =DThis is nice work ay, Athirr? ^^Oh no! Beauty secret's out!This photo certainly cant prove that Rine deserves that medal, but aint it obvious?


Tuesday, May 20, 2008.

The trip wasnt really what I expected it to be like. I wont dare say its a boring trip, but lets put it this way. I manage to entertain myself at the end of the day. Hahaha! But seriously, I shouldnt expect anything at all the next time the NAWIs organise such trips again. Heard the next trip will be Batam? Haha. Idk, lets just wait and see. So yeaa, at the end of the day everyone fell asleep in the coach but cousin and I manage to entertain ourselves by singing. lol. Everyone was dead by then. Hahah. Thanks Elfy, for the entertainment! Didnt know you've got talent in singing too. Hahah. You still havent show me your dancing talent! Grrrr!

Just the one quarter of us?
My hot hot cousin. XD
The mosque that floats.

Another encouraging message for bestfriend, just go for it alright! You got my support, so go all the way now. Good luck ah bestie! XD


Saturday, May 17, 2008.

Best best.

[part I]

EERAH , snapped it says:
what u do just now?
- m A r L i E . says:
go find more food
- m A r L i E . says:
lol
- m A r L i E . says:
hungry siaa
EERAH , snapped it says:
same !
EERAH , snapped it says:
my mummy go bpp jap.
EERAH , snapped it says:
buy for me ljs
- m A r L i E . says:
waaahh.
- m A r L i E . says:
i thought you got your curry ayam?
- m A r L i E . says:
hahahha
- m A r L i E . says:
guess you tasted it yourself
- m A r L i E . says:
and it tasted awful
- m A r L i E . says:
hahaaha
- m A r L i E . says:
so dear eerah, if you were thinking of leaving me some, i suggest you best not
- m A r L i E . says:
hahaah
EERAH , snapped it says:
WATT !
EERAH , snapped it says:
no no
EERAH , snapped it says:
my curry ayam finish alreasy
EERAH , snapped it says:
jiran curik
- m A r L i E . says:
jiran!?!?!
- m A r L i E . says:
OMG!
- m A r L i E . says:
which jiran?!?!
- m A r L i E . says:
i swear i didnt steal your curry ayam
- m A r L i E . says:
scary...
EERAH , snapped it says:
her name is MARLIE
- m A r L i E . says:
brrrrr
- m A r L i E . says:
hahahhaha
- m A r L i E . says:
weird.
- m A r L i E . says:
we have a neighbour similar name as me?
- m A r L i E . says:
i didnt knw
- m A r L i E . says:
well i guess she too loved your curry ayam
EERAH , snapped it says:
hahaha ,
EERAH , snapped it says:
idk .
EERAH , snapped it says:
but she told me that she gg to melaka tml
EERAH , snapped it says:
0.o
- m A r L i E . says:
OMG!
- m A r L i E . says:
lagi scary! im gg too
- m A r L i E . says:
-.-"
- m A r L i E . says:
hahahha
EERAH , snapped it says:
dont tell me that you...........
EERAH , snapped it says:
SUSPECT KUAT
EERAH , snapped it says:
u stole it!
- m A r L i E . says:
ehhh...
- m A r L i E . says:
I know ahh Im always eyeing your naked chicken
- m A r L i E . says:
but jgn lahh suspect i
- m A r L i E . says:
sad sey
- m A r L i E . says:
grrr

[part II]

- m A r L i E . says:
eerah eerah eerah
EERAH , snapped it says:
marlie marlie marlie
EERAH , snapped it says:
+DD
EERAH , snapped it says:
=DD
EERAH , snapped it says:
u know what ?
EERAH , snapped it says:
im in my towels right now
EERAH , snapped it says:
SHH!
EERAH , snapped it says:
ahahha
- m A r L i E . says:
hahahahaha!
- m A r L i E . says:
im gonna post this
- m A r L i E . says:
will make my post v v v interesting
- m A r L i E . says:
hahahah
EERAH , snapped it says:
OHH GOSSSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
EERAH , snapped it says:
im gonna kill u .
EERAH , snapped it says:
i hope it vanish again ^^
- m A r L i E . says:
come get me bby!
- m A r L i E . says:
lol
- m A r L i E . says:
ahahahhaha
- m A r L i E . says:
arse you1
- m A r L i E . says:
!
- m A r L i E . says:
lol
EERAH , snapped it says:
WHATT !
EERAH , snapped it says:
seeoottt .
EERAH , snapped it says:
hahaha
- m A r L i E . says:
hahahaha
EERAH , snapped it says:
go post goo.
- m A r L i E . says:
i will
- m A r L i E . says:
but not now
- m A r L i E . says:
currently mad with blogger
- m A r L i E . says:
lol
EERAH , snapped it says:
hahahha
EERAH , snapped it says:
i hope this window will close or smthg
EERAH , snapped it says:
LOL
- m A r L i E . says:
hahaha
- m A r L i E . says:
too bad i've save the JUICIEST part already
- m A r L i E . says:
haahaa
EERAH , snapped it says:
154150#1@@@46SA7 YOU !!
EERAH , snapped it says:
ohh man!
- m A r L i E . says:
eh you really make me laugh alone from just now siaa
- m A r L i E . says:
if giggle nehmind ahh
- m A r L i E . says:
this is like LAUGHING OUT LOUD
- m A r L i E . says:
grrrr
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
cool kepe
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
u wait .
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
i go siap
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
then i chase after u .
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
u live at the bridges kan ?
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hahahhaha
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
uhh , easy uhh.
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
yes yes yes
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
i'll be waiting
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
dont make me wait long yea
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
i called police skali , pendatang haram!

[part III]

EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
once i have killed u , im satisficed
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
ehy btol tk spelling ?
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
my spelling is getting worse.
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
satisfied syg
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hahhaha
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
nvm
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
learn from mistakes
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
lol
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
thanks for the correcting
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
no problem
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hahah
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
so cher , i need do correction how mny times ?
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hmmm.
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
lets see.
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
i'll give you discount with one condition
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
what >
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
u want curry ayam ?
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
^^
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hahah
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
you have to write 50 times in exchange of your ljs
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
howssat?
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
i dont care bout your naked chicken already la!
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
who cares bout that naked chicken siaa
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
go ask it to fly away
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hahaah
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
wahh u dirty siaaa .
keep on saying naked chicken .
the chicken vair alim , mind you.
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
wear jubah all
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
da pergi haji taw
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
hajjah chickem
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
LJS??
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hahhaha!
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
no way ! im not giving to you.
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
do you know that im laughing real hard that i almost knocked myself onto the screen?
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
damn eearh!

[part IV]

- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
i didnt steal your naked chicken siaa
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
i really dont give a damn bout your naked chicken
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
im all ljs
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
Hajjah chicken .
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hahahahahhaahaha
!
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
im laughing again
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
real hard
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
please
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
reduce your craps can?
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
lol
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
reduce , recycle , reuse .
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
But how to reduce if i keep recycling & reuse my craps ?
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
hahahhaha
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
wth eerah?
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
stooooooooop!
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
im exhausted alrdy
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
alrdy*
- m A r L i E . To eerah: Come get me bby! XD says:
of laughing hard
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
cool kaper ^^
- m A r L i E . says:
hahahahah
- m A r L i E . says:
shhhhh
- m A r L i E . says:
bocoh rahsie
- m A r L i E . says:
aiyeee
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
hhehehe . nk taw mcm maner blh bocoh tk ur rahsia ?
- m A r L i E . says:
how?
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
i poke it with needles.
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
[kkae crap]
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
=.=
- m A r L i E . says:
hahahhaa
- m A r L i E . says:
poke ahh
- m A r L i E . says:
see if it'll truly leak
- m A r L i E . says:
lol

[part V]

- m A r L i E . says:
nvr link me?
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
dont know ?
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
link ?
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
ohh uhuh ehy .
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
LOL
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
sabar
- m A r L i E . says:
hahaha
- m A r L i E . says:
kk
- m A r L i E . says:
sure sure
EERAH , i want kill marlie says:
see , how forget ful i am =.=
- m A r L i E . says:
you'll get sooo forgetful when you're with me darl coz you're just excited to have me.


Since she posted this in her blog, I decided to post this too. At least she gave me an idea on what I should post for today. And very humouring one too. What more with your, "Im bored? You're?" "Im ridiculous. Nice to meet you, bored." Hahahah! XD.

Friday, May 16, 2008.


Happy 16th Birthday Nur Afiqah! ^^

I wanted to share something hilarious bout my two bestfriends. But I guess I wont spill the beans for now and we shall see how long they got punked. Hahahah. They know something which nobody were supposed to know. Yes. Nobody. Cause it isnt true anyways. Hahahahha. Sorry ah guys. I wanted to tell you that what you guys knew all along wasnt true. But I just love to see your reaction when you got to know something as surprising as this ah. Hahahaah. Wont elaborate more cause I really really really dont want them to think what they knew wasnt true. For now ah. Haahaha.

Im not sure anymore. And I never will find the answer in me. Im not sure if I ever could.

I wonder why I told you whom I like before. Are you really considered my bestfriend already? Like really already? Hahahah. Okayy Im not doubting that you're my bestfriend or not ah. You are my bestfriend okayy? Hahaha. Since I got your support, you got mine too bestie. Lol. Okayy this is so random ah. Haha. =D

I miss hanging out with Lynn, KiDd and Ej! :(

Ouh Melaka!~

Wednesday, May 14, 2008.


Yesterday was fun. Head down to Bugis with Hanim and Syuhaidah out of boredom. There was this period where we just couldnt stop laughing. Hahahha. Wont elaborate more. But seriously, I was so relaxed ytd. Guess I needed the time out. Im still wondering what happened to Lala and Nunu. You gerls have yet to tell me whats wrong. You knw that I feel so useless not knowing what happened and seeing you gerls in this state? Talk to you gerls soon alright.

I see you.. You see me..

Disappointing results were what made my day so dark and dull today. Its like all the unpleasant stuff were thrown right in my face. Just like that. It was v v v disappointing I must say. I failed my subjects for which I used to be so good at and even scored distinctions. Hey 'm not being boasty here. Just stating the obvious to my deprovement. Failed my important subjects. And I, for the first time in history, passed my Bio. Yes, my Pure Biology? Which I used to score D7 all the way to F9? Damn! Hahaha. Was unbelievable. But still, its just the Mid-Year. Like I said earlier, gotta work extra hard. Ms Joseph said the Mid-year was just an average paper. While the prelims paper is twice as hard. Gaaaaahhhh! Izzatie! Amcm friday? Study date ah ape lagi? ^^

I dno what Im looking for in you. Is it a good friend? Or is it somfin' else? Im just not sure anymore. And you think you got the answer to that?


Tuesday, May 13, 2008.

"You are missed, LalaLofva!"

MidYear is over. And so is my results. I dno why but I feel that my MidYear performance this year is the worst compared to previous examinations. Its like Im slacking. Alot. Damn. I've got alot in mind which I cant bring myself to get it off my chest. Its frustrating. Very. Gaaah! I wonder if other people experience the feeling Im experiencing right now too. Maybe they do, but they dont show. Like me ah. Sigh sigh. Difficult difficult. O levels is hard work. People been saying endure, endure. Its only for one year if you put in enough efforts. Well, Im not sure if I can endure any further. Im not complaining neither am I whining here. Im just lacking of confident. Hai. Studies. Whatever.

Come skank with me..

I have consider what I wanna do in the near future to come. I wont say it out here neither will I share it with anyone first. Only those who are closer to me knows. ^^ But Im not sure if thats truly what I wanna do for my future. All I know is that Im interested in doing it and yeaa. I dont see why not. Uncs and aunts came ytd to celebrate the mother's day with gramms. Told unc about my interest. Even he said lets wait for my O's result and shall see how it goes. Damn. Results results results.

I told you I would love to have you as a friend. But why am I waiting for your call when you said you'd call me, and you didnt? You've managed to poison me. But I somehow would stick to my words, taking you as a friend. =)

No.2 Bestfriend,
All I can say for now is just go for it! O' levels I mean. Hahahahah. Okayy okayy, O levels and eveything you want to achieve lahh okayy? Im sure you can achieve your goals and dreams, insya'Allah. Be confident of yourself lahh. Its just nice having you as my bestfriend. It feels great being able to BULLY someone for a bestfriend. ^^

Saturday, May 10, 2008.


Why is all this happening to me at once, I thought while doing my physics paper. When I was stuck at a particular question, I just got frustrated and all the stuff that is stressing me now just hit me all at once. I almost forgot where I was. I would have screamed my lungs out in the examination hall. I thought Amath was a killer. But I was wrong. Physics was a murder. Terrible. Coming back to school every saturday to meet the books over a cup of tea isnt enough. Guess I'll start staying back every possible day that I can and do my own revision. Its just a plan for now though. I cant wait for O' levels. No Im not excited or anything. But I just cant wait to get it over and done with. I wanna start working. Do something new, know what I mean? Four years of staring at the books is exhausting, but exciting though. I know its weird and its what people hate the most. But I like. I dno why and I dont even bothe rto find out why. I guess thats just the way I am. Im not sure if I got the motivation and the mood to revise for physics and chemistry Paper1.

I always thought that I was stronger...

This is Random.
I always have something sad in mind. But everytime I wanna share it with someone, its either I dno how to say it or I dont see the use of sharing it with anyone at all. No one will understand what other people go through unless they experienced it too. So I find it bull when people kept saying they understand and they know how other people feel when they dont experience the same thing. Okayy, maybe they understand. But how can they know, how other people feel? When they didnt experienced what others went through? Yeaa. Thats what I think lahh. Sigh. People's mind. Filled with confusion most of the time. At times, what I say is different from what I think. Get it? Nevermind. I end up saying different things at times. Im frustrated everytime I did that. Not that I wanted to. I just dno how to say things. Poor language is one thing. Dno how to express myself is another thing. Its like, wanting to put an end to all this feelings I've got. I know its impossible for human beings to not have any feelings. But must it be sooo complicated? Okayy Im done whining here. That is sooo not what I wanted to post today. Bull's.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008.


Im under alot of pressure lately. And I mean aloooot. Math paper was unspeakable. Mrs Lim saw me struggling with the paper and she pat me and asked me to relaxed. Howssat for a Mid-Year paper? Sigh. I told myself I wont break down if I failed my MYE even though I know Im gonna fail badly. But Im just afraid if my O level result would end up the same as MYE result. I dont want to disappoint everyone around me who have high expectations of me. I know even MYE I should be serious and not slack. But thats how I am. I cant help but always get distracted when Im in the mood to study or do some revision. Im sick now. Fever has got me away from books. My nose bleed this morning. I wonder if it has got anything to do with the fever. Whatever. Still got both the AMath papers to cover. And of coz Mathematics paper 2, geog, bio, chem and phy. I havent start my revision for all of the above. Yeaa, see how slacked to the max I am? I wont promise anything anymore. Coz I know I wont be able to fulfil it no matter how hard I tried.

To _______,
Thanks for the greatest ********** that you have given to me. People like you just cant stop my world revolves on its axis. =)


To _______,

Give me some time to think straight alright? I wont give you anymore excuses. Assume what you want for all I care. Im under all this fucking pressure. I dont want to make a decision at the wrong timing and rush things. But I somehow think that we're not going to work out coz to be frank with you, I am more comfortable to have you as a friend, and no its not an excuse to reject you.Its just my thought for now. I still havent got to the right mind yet. Whatever it is, I am grateful to have to got to know you. You are terribly a wonderful friend. *smiles*

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