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31st March.
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Saturday, March 31, 2007.

You're one in a million
Ohhh
NowYou're one in a million
Ohhh

Sometimes love can hit you everyday
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
But only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky said to me

CHORUS:
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover
One of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover
One of the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
When I thought that all the hope was gone
A smile there you were and I was gone

I always will remember how I felt that day
A feelin' indescribable to me
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one, the one for me

CHORUS (x2)

In the beginning I was cool and everything was possible
They tried to catch me but it was impossible
No one could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and you were the same
And when you didn't want me I wanted you because
The funny thing about it is I liked the show
I like it when it's difficult
I like it when it's hard
Then you know it's worth it
That you found your heart

CHORUS (x2)
You're one in a million
Ohhh
You're one in a million

people like mr ong, rosa, eun jin and nisa..
are highly appreciated by ME.
thanks guys.

today's lesson was great,
except for math.
from the period after recess till around 12.07 i wasnt in class.
was somewhere else.

might as well wait till 12.30 then get back to class right?
HEE.
ermm, i wanna thank zura for the ferrero gerl!
so sweet of you! hee.

i cant wait to go out with nisa larh!!
i miss going out, hanging around with herr sey.
GOSH.
haha.

okok.
i've gotten my result slip back larh.
its a shame that i failed my one and only MALAY??
like.. DUHH!!

and i've added up to L1R5.
its somewhere around 15 points.
i really gotta brush up my skills.
HEE.

okok.
im now chatting with EJ, afiq[not sofie's bf], nisa and iida.
hee.
always there for me, right guys?
LOLs.

yeapp.
results are the following;
ENGLISH - C6
MALAY - E8
AMATHS - A1
EMATHS - A1
BIO[pure] - B4
SCI[chem,phy] - B4
COMB HUM[ss,geo] - B3

im not satisfied with my results.
like.. need improvement larh!!
GRRR..!!
but overall, i think i did fine.

and i make a new friend; afiq.
he's great.
nice to talk to.
thanks dude!

life was hard, yet i still suffer..

Friday, March 30, 2007.

im donno what im gonna do next.

i've been soo stressed up.
its great having anim to listen to my probs.
she's been listening.
LOVE ya!

but yea, it still upsets me everytime i remember it.
coz, its hurtful.
yes, it does.
*sighh..

both subject teachers have like..
came back at the same day!! haa!~
and yea, ms J admit that she's ill. poor thing.
and mrs lim met with an accident izit? i guess so.

yeapp.
gotten back my english paper.
but not my S.S. paper.
will update as soon as i've gotten back all my results.

after that, heard some bad news about syazwi.
poor thing.
cheer-upss syazwi!!
[macam die bleh dgr gitu, haha!]

after skool went to plaza with gerlfys without mirr.
went around then into the popular.
then there was a big commotion outside plaza.
and we being soo 'K-PO'.. go and check out..

and so, the first floor, at the corner where you're heading
towards the lift, someone was lying there;
someone actually fainted.
GOSH. stjohn!! haha. opps!

after watching for a while..
i got sad after receiving mum's reply.
ASS larh!! GGGrrrrrrrRRRRR..!!
but i act happy in front of gerlfys.

and after that, decided to make our way home.
OTW back, saw daadee in his cabbie with some malay passenger.
guess daadee didnt saw me.
and now, here i am at home, blogging away and crying things out to nisa and nadz.

thanks gerls!
LOVE ya'll!!

Thursday, March 29, 2007.

its a whole lot harder when the problems is there.
'problems keep piling up,
but they dont vanish.'
that qoute i used to describe my feelings to iida and nisa.
thanks gerlfriends!! LOVES. sometimes, when i feel hurt, or feeling down, i felt lonely. thats how i feel. like.. someone have stabb me in my heart. thats how painful and hurtful i feel. its no joke. its the truth with no lies. how can i get myself into this mess in the first place?? that Q has been running through my mind for awhile. gosh.

'coz she got a long way to go..'

yea, i've been in such a messy life. well, thats my own life. but i donno whats been through it. like.. GOSH!! i didnt go through the malay contest thingy, thats sad enough.. but then.. ok.. like what i used to say; 'shit always happen!' haa! *sighh.. how i wish like is perfect for me. can it? of coz not. its gods-willing, so let it be. all i can do is.. to pray..

okok!! wadever this thing is, im asked to do it anyway by ana and weena.
well, wad can i do? these cuzzins of mine 'ROX' to the core!! haa~
here we go!~

"This is what you are supposed to do - Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. People who get tagged need to write in the blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as state the rules clearly.In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.After you do that,leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog."

1) i failed the subjects which are easy [e.g. malay, geog..] and i passed subjects which are diff [e.g.math, chem..]

2) im addicted to this continent called LONDON, or UK. haha. is it weird? if its not, well its does to me!! Y setie london!!LOLs.

3) my closest cuzzins are not the one which are my own cuzzins. get it? HAHA!! its complicated larh.. okok.. wad i meant was.. my closest cuzzins as in physically, are like deena.. weena.. ana and all.. but the one im closest with as in blood.. we're not soooo close.. now get it? GGrrRR!! idk howtuh explain larhs~~

4) when i want something, or want to enter any competition, im sooo eager. but when i get that something, i dont feel as eager anymore!! haa!~

5) i love reading comics, which is archie and friends, OUH YES!! haha. its my fav since young larh ehk!! so dont ask me why.

6) sometimes i hate [insert name], but sometimes, i love [insert name]. GOSH. i cant decide. well, to me, its weird alright!! :P

Now, the lucky 6 are...
*drumroll!*

1)Sofie
2)Iids
3)Deena
4)Athirr
5)Ej =)
6)Reeta :)

toodledoo!~

gosh..
the results were posted minutes ago and i didnt realised that
until mirr told me.
and yea, looking from the way i started, we didnt get into the
semi-finals.

damn -it!
me and mirr were hoping to get at least into the semi-finals or somt.
hah!~
there goes our hopes.

skool was like hell today.
but.. BUT!!
CME was great!
that new cute teacher is our new CME teacher!!

MR. SUFY[suffyan].
haha.
rosa melts.
hee.

okok.
was pretty sad to get news about our subject teachers.
what the hell is this?
i mean..

CC met with an accident? poor thing.
eng teacher is sick[i will not reveal her illness]. poor thing.
and thats why i havent gotten my eng and SS paper back.

its getting hard to.. be around you.. there's so much i cant say..

my eyes have been staring at the time since just now.
haha. was soooo frighten.. donno why..
and its 5pm!! gosh!! mirr? you there??
haha. the results will be post at 5pm!!

and guess wat? im waiting like.. WTH?!?
haa!
the clock is ticking 'tick tock tick tock'
yeahaha!!

okok.
im sorry hilly, i've nothing much to say.
my lips are sealed.

just so you know.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007.

its 6:20AM now.
and im here blogging away before going to skool.
haa.
okok.

getting ready now.
bubye!

i donno how else to explain.. im sorry HILLY!

i've been to many bloggs.
they're very interesting.
so many funn stories.
yeapp.

and to hilly babesie, its nice having a friend like you. and you know its hard to have a friend who is always giving away free tips and advises just like that. haa!~ yea, i'll get to my point real soon. but before that, i wanna thank you for being there in paris. haha. i mean, you're been the one listening to my problems and all. maybe you should know that i hearts you even more than you can imagine! yea. you made me realise wad a sister is. you made me realise what love is. you even made me realise how lucky i am to still have my sisters. i envy you gerl, i really do. and whats more, i even wanna stay in our friendship as long as we might, or maybe even forever. but something is holding me back. and im sad to say, our friendship will hafta end here. wadever it is, IM SORRY!! i didnt meant to break our friendship apart! i love you gerl, for everything you've done for me. but remember this, I WILL TREASURE YOU, BABY GERL! and dont forget to tel bubz that mummy once had a friend whom really heart your mummy like hell lot! remember that women! gosh, im gonna miss talking to you and all. wadever it is, take it easy and stay happy and strong! <3

ok.
now that im done with hilly's message from me,
im tired.
i needa rest.
TAKE CARE! <3

my birthday outing with gerlfys and 'mumsie'
is next sat, coz this sat, gerlfys not free.
i understand, im such a forgiving person,
therefore i forgive and forget; 'blergghh'

with dear sister farlini and suhailah,
maybe this sat.
but just the three of us huh?
haha. like, i dont want my dears to get bored
on this outing.

yea, i donno.
maybe i should invite fifi hudz and all?
haa.
and yea.

i've also consider going out with nisa on another day.
which is, me and herr thought of asking rosa too.
and i wanna ask eun jin, like, can?
hee.

yeapp.
i wanna go out with dear sofie with some of herr
friends, but im not sure
if she wants to.
and im not sure if im free/ they're free.

okok.
this is to be discussed again, soon!

Tuesday, March 27, 2007.

i finally poured everything out to them.
thanks gerlfys.
and yea, this time gerlfys is all there,
with anim, me, iids, athirr and mirr.

i feel much better babbling about nann.
*sighh..
im sooo jealous seeing iids having a loving gramms,
yes, I AM!!

i donno wad else to say.
ouh yarr.
BIG day coming soon.
planning to go out with gerlfys, LYNN, suhailah, and sofie.

but so many people cannot cramp on one day right right?
and its best for me to separate me lynn and suhailah
coz its been long since we last spend time together.
WEEHee~

P.S: me hearts nisa more and more everyday!

pictures on the way~

'the pink is oh-so-hawt!'

the bdae cake!!

the ladees~

boredom waiting fer afiq!!

blurr.. sofie is a bad photographer! haa~

rose, nana.

went i took this picture, there wasnt anyone..

coz i wanna took the scenery behind this guy,

it was very nice,

and i ebd up having 'someone'

in the pic!!

'GOTCHA!'

haa, and you got me too!~

sweeeeeet~

mine~

altogether now!

cheese!

SWEET LADEES!~

and lastly,

happy 17th birthday aida! =)

Sunday, March 25, 2007.

taggies replies;
FARLINI: really? thats great! LOVE ya! muahh! <3
DANIAL: heyhey, welcomes. see ya soon.
NISA: s'ok. everythings calmed and cool now. but everythings NOT.. SOON!!
SUHAILAH: heyya, talk things out maybe? nyaha. LOVESS!!

went to pahlawan beach with some gerlfrens and guys.
we sure had fun! weeee~
here we go~

its nuraida's birthday tomorrow and she invited us
to celebrate herr birthday today.
had taken sooooooo many pix larhs!
will update them soon.

we had so much laughters, gossips and all.
there's naqq, rose, syiqin, zaa, cailing, carmen
and some other friends.
ouh yarr, and not forgetting dear SOFTIE!!

sentosa is nice!
woohooo!
i wanna go there again larhs!
hee!~

and around two most of them go shower
get ready and went to vivo.
sofie meeting someone.
the rest wanna see who that someone sofieis meeting.

NYAHA!
opps..!!
shhhh!!
haha.

okok.
then meet AFIQ!
gosh!!
he's like..
sooooo.. ROUND!! and tembam!

LOLs.
okok.
he's cute larh, in a sarcastic way.
haha.

i donno wad im saying either.
i mean.. he's cute, but who cares?
hah!!
hmm..

yea.
i'll update his pix for today..
the rest..
tomorrow after religion class!!

pheewit!~
HAA!~

here we go~~

cute??

i'll leave the comment to ya'll out there..

hee.

comment please!!

oh sofie will like this, ohlala!~

hee.

Labels: the pahlawan beach

Saturday, March 24, 2007.

taggies replies;
NISA: heyya gerl, yea.. i guess so. hearts ya!
DEENA: heyhey, take caress too ya!
AIDA: haha. yeapp. me too. see ya tomorrow! =)
HILLY: heys, yeappsie! of coz you sexy hottielicious! nyaha.
NISA: hey again! LOVESSSS!!
SOFIE: thanks dear softie!!
HANISAH: thanks babe, i will. you too take care ya!
EJ: EJ, woots you sexy cutie pie!! nyaha. guess wad? I LOVE YOU LIKE HEAVEN.
PRINCESSJULZ: heyhey, thanks mummy! pheewit!~ hee.

cheerful, down, happy, excited, over-excited, shocked-speechless, wayyy down.

CHEERFUL;
going to skool this morning i was as cheerful
as i didnt have any thinking going on.
so.. yeapp..
was as cheerful until;

DOWN;
went it was geo.
i gotten back my result and i failed.
it was a hell lot of a careless mistake!!
5/15!! GEE. then;

HAPPY;
getting to see the sec 2s during recess
makes me think of hanim like hell lot!!
misses herr larhs sey!
yeapp.. soon after;

EXCITED;
gotten back Emath paper.
and i've obtained A1 for overall.
weehee~
and then;

SHOCKED/SPEECHLESS;
half-way through the last period saw eun jin.
gosh!! haha.
i was totally shocked and speechless sia!!
i didnt even hugg hanim only until at canteen after skool.
bad bad ruby. nyaha! than;

WAY-DOWN;
wad happened between me and family famzy
really hurts like a hell lot!
gosh.
how i wish nisa is online now.
i need you gerl!
woots! *sigghh..

dont ever regret what you did, boy..

Friday, March 23, 2007.

felt lonely again today;
i mean, im feelin' strange.
im just like.. soo weird today.
some 'weirdo' i am. haa!

went around plaza with nisa iids athirr
mirr bibz izni and zura can sure be fun!
but me and gerlfys didnt enjoy much
i mean, we were not as close as we were.

i was with nisa the whole time.
i donno its me or gerlfys.
i think its me even though i donno wad is it
cause i shouldnt be blaming gerlfys for my weird actions today.

me hearts nisa larh.
herr sense of humour sure made my day.
and being with rosa is hell lot of fun!
nyaha.

but i miss hanim! WAAAHHHH!!
*sob2*
okok.
still havent finish my homework.

tomorrow have lessons as per normal.
WTH?!?
haa!
yeapp.

im now chatting with dear nisa.
poor thing.
stress and stress and stress.
nothing else but stress.

*sheesh*
if only i could do something to cheer you up baby gerl!
dont cry anymore.
im always there for you.

i almost cried hearing your probs gerl.
i know how you feel.
its like, you donno whether its option A or option B.
its like a really tough decision.

i understand,
like; totally understand babe.
dont worry.
im always there for you.

all along you've been there for me.
thanks gerlfriend.
now, its your turn to have my support.
all i can do is to lend you my shoulders when you need them.

and to everyone,
good luck for your results tomorrow!!
pheewit!~

pity those..

Labels: it is was soooo weirdo ME.

Thursday, March 22, 2007.

was left alone; and so, i left without a werd.

i'll probably elaborate more on that particular sentence
when im not feeling soo left out anymore.

and yea; im back!
and ferstly i wanna say sorie to anyone who
i make them feel guilt.
to iids especially!

i understand you had to rush and everything.
s'ok gerl.
haa.
im not hating you or blame you or not talking to you forever
or somt like that baby gerl.

and i wanna say this,
you wasnt at fault.
SO DONT EVER FEEL BAD!!
ok?? haiya..

and i broke down thats not cause you gerls left me.
its because i was left alone.
well, does that make sense?
the sentence is like the same.

oh well, wad im trynah say is,
you gerls did left me,
but i didnt broke down because of that.
its because of something else, get it?

SKIPP!!

im feelin' the friendship that me and rosa are building.
its getting stronger this week.
coz we've been depending on each other
as eun jin and hanim went for sec 2 camp.

yeapp.
and im very happy for herr for enjoying today's programe.
she seems to be laughing alot for the last programe.
MR DASS.
more like MR D-ASS!! haha.

well, thats wad she said.
yea. we went fine.
talked alot.
about herr country, about how nice having nisa as a friend of ours.

yea.
we were just missing our buddies.
[[herr's eun jin, mine is hanim]]
as they went for the sec 2 camp.

okok.
i wanna thank nisa for everything.
yes nisa, EVERYTHING!!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007.

heyho everyone! =)
yesterday went fine..
but was tiring though.
was supposed to have news-casting thingy.

but then me iids athirr and mirr get to escape.
we were allowed to follow the sec 1s to their field-trip.
had to be vedio crew and record everything.
yeapp.

along the journey get to know this cutie pie; HAZIQ.
yea. he's damn cute!! nyaha..
okok. 1e1 is cool. no one is like.. 'stepping'.. hee.
but the students are very 'kanchiong' and excited sia!!

*sheesh*
after skool went to plaza mac coz mirr very hungry.
then athirr went home with me.
use my laptop to update!!

okok.
im felt sorry for rosa for leaving her just like that.
but thanks to nisa she came over to e2.
yeapp.

poor rosa.
stress everywhere.
how i wish i could help.
nisa said a hugg should help.

okok.
i wanna get ready fer skool.
bubyess.

its always there, just never spoken.

Labels: stress been manipulating us teenagers.

ferst of all, taggies replies;

NISA: ahakz, yeapps. thanks gerl! hearts ya! muahh!
TIRAMISU: kk.. see ya around in skool! LOVES.
ANDREYANA: sure thang, thanks gerl! you too ya.
HILLY: bad bad hilly, poor poor juz, good good nana. LOLs. hearts!
INSYIRAH: heyya gerl, im sure to relink ya asap!
SING YIN: welcomes my dear, and i'll relink ya asap too okiezz?
EJ: ILY many the many2 larhs!! hee. <3

DEENA: hey you poor thing, make sure you have plenty of rest aitezz, and do take good care of yourself. LOVES.
GEGERL: hey hey you you! haha. me hearts you like many larhs!! pheewit~
NORAINA: izit? haha. sua. hey, arent you supposed to be on the campsite or somt?

i'll update about today, tomorrow, i wont promise but most likely i'll update tomorrow! weeeeeeee~

adding up to my stress~

Labels: taggies replies

Tuesday, March 20, 2007.

was just finished showering.
coz i've just returned home.
slacking around in skool lib
with iids, mirr, athirr and bibz.

saw terence and jerome,
so went over and exchange our 'hi'.
talked about so many things.
its funn having friends like them.

okok.
i wanna talk about yesterday.
was soooo angry with nann.
some kinda idiotic sensitive attitude!!
GGGRRRRR...!!

fcuk!
*sheesh*
and so, i sms-ed mirr and ask herr if she's
free to talk on the phone coz im feeling down.
sad as to say, she replied;

'i at kenduri lah. sori eh syg.'
for the non-malays if you dont understand, its;
'im at a ceremony, sorie darly.'
AND I BROKE DOWN.

[dotsss].
i wasnt saying its herr fault of somt,
and please dont feel bad.
im just saying that i feel even werst
when there's no one i could burst out to.

but then again, everything was calm and cool
after a while.
but she's doing it every-single day!!
just when is she gonna sleepover at aunts hse??

*sighh..
skool today was soooo BORING!!
science, science then self-esteem.
WTF?!?
what are the principal doing?

they are not organizing things to our interest!!
*sheesh*
okok.
gtg.

im totally forgetting you.. bit by BIT!!

Monday, March 19, 2007.

ruby miss gerlfys larhs!! and tomorrow is the starting of term 2.
andi wont be seeing anim and hudzie and fifi and and..
eunjin!! hee. miss herr larhs.

am just back home from religion skool.
and im wearing long pants while blogging away here,
thats coz my uncle's coming to visit nann.

hate it when either side of my paternal or maternal
siblings come, hafta wear long pants just to respect them.
GEE.

friday was the last uncle, UNCLE LILI[rosli].
sat was aunt, AUNTIE LYNN.
today, my second twin uncle, UNCLE RAMLI.

cant i have any peace?
*sheesh*
bringing your little ones along are soooo not my day!!

okok.
stop being rude larh nana!
respect your elderly!!!!

hmm..
chatting with aida is like so much funn!!
shared a bit about him with herr,
but i didnt let herr know who he is, shhh!

and and, im chatting with anim, naqq and hilly at the same time.
chatting with naqq is funn larh!! hee.
chatting with hilly babe.

i cant believe she gave juz another chances.
well, good for juz but hilly?
idk!

and and, hilly's mean for making juz being a model.
NYAHA!!
okok. low profile, shhh, keep MUM!!

hee. okok.
shall stop here.
weeeeee~

hearts hilly, iids, aida and naqq!
woots!

i followed the voice you think you gave to me..

Sunday, March 18, 2007.

i've edit some pics, and the one with pooh and athirr,

its from iida.

thanks sweetie.

ENJOY~

Landing in LONDON~

it says everything~

living life to the fullest, pheewit~

yeappY

and; hell yea!

athirr very bad; jealousy is there; HAA!

Saturday, March 17, 2007.

I woke up today in London
As the plane was touching down
All I could think about was Monday
Maybe I’d be back around
If this keeps me away much longer
I don’t know what I will do
You've got to understand it’s a hard life,
that I’m going through

And when the night falls in around me
I don’t think I’ll make it through
Ill use your light to guide my way
Cuz all I think about is you

L A is getting kind of crazy
New York's getting kind of cold
I keep my head from getting lazy
I just can’t wait to get back home

And all these days I spend away
Ill make up for this I swear
I need your love to hold me up
When it’s all too much to bear

And when the night falls in around me
I don’t think I’ll make it through
Ill use your light to guide my way
Cuz all I think about is you

And all these days I spend away
Ill make up for this
I swearI need your love to hold me up
When it’s all too much to bear

And when the night falls in around me
I don’t think
I’ll make it through
Use your light to guide the way

Cuz all I think about is you

Landing in LONDON; seeing you with someone else..

Labels: Landing in LONDON by 3doors down.

was shocked to hear about the sec 5 student
collapsed and passed away.
how sad.
SKIPP!

today's malay thingy went fine.
had a blast time with dear mirr.
we were supposed to develop a vedio
of an introduction of us individually.

after we finished our shot,
go find dear neeky.
weehee~
anim + cheeky = neeky

while waiting fer anim,
saw fifi and hudzie at the concourse,
so we went over to say hi.
then something unexpected happened.

dear hudzie offered me a hugg.
i feel great!
being classmates all this while doenst really
make me feel close towards herr
until just now.

thanks pretty laddey!
and so, i hugg fifi too.
they're super duper cute when put together!
weewit!

haaa.
so yarr.
i can see why they're so 'mesre' together!
haha.

i just love them larhs!~
weehee.
okok. holz one week is like..
sooooo not enough!!

~~FISH~~!!
im not that satisfied with the holz,
but at least i get out of 'the-sights-of-books' for a while.
*sighh..

okok.

wadever it is;

good luck for all of your results ya!

all the best!~

do you want me, to have the feelings, and look the other way..

Labels: thought you should know..

Friday, March 16, 2007.

im so happy!!
weehee!! horray!!
haha. wanna know why?
okok. i'll tell ya!

ferstly, I GOT MY LAPTOP BACK!!
i didnt know i'd miss it that much!!
gosh!! weehee.
but all my files are gone since its been hospitalized for a week.

secondly, i love my skin, its LONDON!!
thanks iids babe!!
love ya many2!!
hee.

my fav place.
i guess if i ever wanna migrate,
ya'll should know which place i have in mind.
haha.

TAGGIES REPLIES~
EJ: hello sweetie babe! you're much much cuter larhs!! hee. LOVESSS!!
mirr: ahakz. thanks sweetie.
Feqaa: thanks babe! =) you too ya!
SOFTIE: wow! im amazed that you actually put you nick as softie!! haha. yea. thanks to iid she got me this beautiful skin. =)
iiDs: hee. thanks gerl!! yea. i miss the swing swing in my childhood days.. weehee. LOVE ya babe!! muahh!! =)

today's hosting-thingy went fine~
hee.

she's like, so wadever..

Labels: hey hey.

Thursday, March 15, 2007.

"you burst out crying.
arent you sensitive?
i know she's rude to you.
but she's been rude to me,
mom and even daadee."

"i mean, dont you know herr.

stone-head.

whats the use of bursting out crying

when she apologise and

repeat the same mistake?"

"sometimes i had enough of you!
and sometimes i just heart you!
its because you're my [insert status]
that i keep my temper aside."

"and did you know all your atittude and

behaviour are hurting momsie?

of coz she didnt show it.

coz she doesnt wanna hurt YOU!!"

"she care for you!
she have the feelings for you.
but do you even care for herr feelings?
you dont seems like to.."

"i know you want the things your way.

but we have our own way too.

i know you want everything in YOUR own way.

but so do we."

"we all want to have it our own way.
who doesnt?
couldnt you just have it our way at least ONCE??
or at least hear out our opinion or so."

"it always seems to be your way.

i mean..

i know she's rude.

which is why i've been ignoring herr."

"but do you think its fair for herr being ignored at?
coz after all, she have our blood.
the SAME blood.
right?"

"cant you see we're in a difficult position with you

around?

im not being rude, sarcastic or somt.

but the stress in us are one-quarter from you!!"

"ok. i think i've said it all.
i know you now.
you're the sensitive type.
you're the hot-tempered type."

P.S.: to anyone who dont understand any crappz here, its ok. you dont have to. im just trynah burst everything out!! =(

life is as complicated as can be..

Labels: soooo complicated.

monday was nadz 15th birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGERL!
hearts ya!

the thing is, i never have the time to meet herr
and pass herr the present.
i really miss the time i spent
with dear nisa and nadz.

how i wish i could hang out with them again.
and tomorrow's gonna be someone's birthday.
its sufian's.
my old classmate, weehee.

okok. im starting to miss my laptop.
when i get my laptop back,
im gonna take good care of it!!
its been five days on M.C.!!

and im getting sick of my hp!!
likes not that good though.
thought of changing a new one.
guess wad? a CHOCOLATE!!

but not now i guess.
hafta concentrate on studies ferst
then i can get daadee to buy me a new one.
HEE!

im not feeling well today.
was wondering if i can make it for the
'malay-hosting-thingy' at INNOVA JC tomorrow.
gosh im nervous!

our malay teacher asked for volunteer.
and anim thought of volunteering for fun
as she was getting excited.
and so, i volunteered too.

but i didnt realised i'd be this EXCITED until
the very last minute!!
great GOSH!!
okok.

i've been rubbing my nose since morning.
HATE IT WHEN IT HAPPENS!!
well, like what hilly said;
SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN!!

take care everyone!!
bubye.
WOOTS!!

he said; I WANNA BE YOUR ROMEO, HEY JULIET!

Labels: shit happens i guess.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007.

had chemistry with 3e3 and 3e4.FULLSTOP!!
after that me iida and athirr went to jurong and get iida's hair done.
on the way there, i saw this swing.
i remebered my childhood days.

how i miss those days.
so we took a small ride.
as i swing from one end to the other end,
memories flash back to me.

and as just told iida something which might sound childish to ya'll.
i told herr that if any of the gerlfy's feels depressed or sad or feels
like wanna run away.. we can always meet at the nearest
playground that have swing.

yarr.. go ahead and laugh but trust me,
i felt much better after that.
believe it or not.
yea!!

okok.
shant say more.
LOVE iids and hilly more and more!Y

how can i forget you when you always appear.. not with SOMEONE else..

Labels: yuppie.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007.

Hilly babe,

when i heard the song you sang,
it really touched deep into my heart.
all i can say is,
to stay happy and strong.

i can see that you take it slow and easy,
but i definitely dont know whats
going through in your mind right now.
i've just been to your blogg.

i can see how much zach and HENRI are
so important to you.
and.. yea.. there are like.. millions and zillions of guys

out there who can be a much better 'father' for your

two little ones.

yea.. i know you're strong.

hilly is one hot babe who is strong deep inside.

everyone knows that.

well, everyone who knows you that is.

and one more thing babe,

still loving you! =)

heartly by MARLIEYANA.

now, im gonna talk bout my result.
but ferst of all,
i dont feel like telling you how much
i got coz i feel like im making it a big deal..
so.. yea..

secondly, nann and lin made a big fuse.. like AGAIN!!
i've forgiven lin long ago and i dont think calling
herr bitch is right, coz she's still my blood and flesh
after all..

all thanks to hilary for making me realise that.
but what i hate the most is that,
even if i forgive herr,
she repeat the same mistake.

like what hilly said,
maybe she need and elder sibling[as in ME!!],
to correct herr mistakes.
what you said is easy, but she wont listen to me.

thats when it hurt most!!
okok. shant say more.
i thought i need hilly and iida for a moment there.
but after a while, i was cool.

and i feel like writing a special note for lovey dovey dollyiida.
weehee.

lovey-dovey dollyiida,

its nice having you as my gerlfy.
and its nice of you being there for me when i need you.
its much much more nicer of you to have
lent me your precious shoulder when i cried.

hearts you baby!
you made me realise how precious one's life is.
and also how important a friend can be in one's life.
really appreciate having you as my gerlfy, gerlfren!

LOVES, muahh! =)
RUBYOL___*

dear deenaaaaa,

you know how much i heart you dear cuzz.

and you know that you can tell/share with me

anything.

i'd feel so left out without knowing your prob.

therefore, i'd like to thank you for trusting me

and sharing your prob.

i feel much relief after you told me, hunn.

LOVED, shweets!! =)

<u>cutie nisa,

do you know that i still am regarding you as one of my bestie?
coz you can lighten up my day with your jokes,
and of coz, your cuteness!

thanks a bunch sexy notty bitch!
MUAHH!

okok.
shall stop here.
today had Amath and Emath class,
from 9 to 2pm.
sway right?

but hey, look at the bright side!
at least its worth it!!
tomorrow there's chemistry class.
combined with E3 and E4 i guess.

bubye everyone!!
LOVES, rubyY.

bit by bit.. im starting to forget YOU!

Labels: if it wasnt for you..

Friday, March 09, 2007.

its really sad seeing Hilly's situation.
but at the same time,
im feelin' really glad that she is doin' strong.
i know you can make it on your own babe.
you always have your lovely bubz by your side.

from what i can see,
Hilly is a strong 'gerl-next-door'..
who is kind and thoughtful,
and is independent for having someone
she had been treasured left herr.

now i see someone else's situation who is much more pity than me.
i guess i've been complaining to much?
well, who's life is perfect?
that Qs has been wondering in my mind for quite long enough till i manage to sound it out.
poor Hilly.
and i think its also good for both Zach and Henry since they're still 'bubz'.

no matter what, i love you Hilly,
for lending me your ear,
for all the advises,
and being there for me[there-refering to paris??]
all i can say is;
life still has to go on.
and for this, i would like to thank Hilly babe,
fer making me 'wake-up-from-the-night-call'.

really hope that one day i could meet you with the bubz?
[in my dreams!!]
well, i really do wish to.
but i guess i hafta continue dreaming. LOLs.
okok.
cheer up Hil!
hearts you! MUAHH!

today's lesson went just fine.
but its me!!
flu here and there.
and i thought of going either to the sick bay or home,
but then, i was too lazy and wayy too weak to move.

so.. yea..
and and,
i've gotten my chem and Amaths results!!
weewit! hee.

wanna know??
Amath wasnt so satisfiying.
i got only 34/50. was aiming fer 45. *sheesh!*
chem i got 22/30. A2.
mrs teo add up for overall and its 75.6% A1!!

gosh. i was so excited. wanna know why?
because im supposed to be so stupid in science.
and i was supposed to hate science.
but then, all the hard werk and paying extra attention in class really is much worth.
hee.

how bout ya'll out there?
hopefully you'll get better and yet satisfiying results too! =)
okok.
im tired!!
tomorrow for X-country gonna be part of the road marcle[is that how you spell it?]

i dreamt of 'him'.. its weird..

Labels: cheer-ups hilly babe.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007.

in the skool lib now..
blogging away..
hee.
and i wanna thank all my friends for all the advises!!

and i feel sorie for Hilly but not for Juz!!
how dare he!!
left Hilly for his Ex!!
okok. shan't say more.

like wad you said earlier,
look at the bright side dear,
you still have your bubz and you're not married to him yet.

gosh.
it really frigthens me to have get into relationship.
sighh..
hmm.
nothing much happened today.
just that im a bit relief that exam is over.

well, had just finished surfin' through hilly's blogg.
this i swad she wrote for me;

Well Nana, here's a lil something from me to you. Seriously, just give in and be a good bigger sister. Honestly, my own little sister was a bitch too from time to time but you can't tell me she's never done at least one good thing for you. Even if she hasnt, give her time. You guys are family and thats something special and noone can ever take that from you guys. Talk to ya lil sis, have a heart to heart. Im sure youve been that bitch to Sofie before, right? Give her a second chance, believe in 3rd and 4th chances as well. Everyone makes mistakes. She just needs some guidance from someone she calls a big sister. And that would be you. Dont make that mistake I made. I was like you, Id be like so what to my lil sis but just think of it like this, what if one day your sister left and never came back and it was your fault for not guiding her properly? Hmm? Would you ever forgive yourself? Seriously, just kiss and make up. Fighting aint worth anyone's time. I lost my sis cuz I was bein a bitch to her, don't do the same okay?

sweet right?
okok.
donno wad else to say.
take care dear readers!
BUBYE!!

Labels: Hilly im always here IN SPORE for you.

Monday, March 05, 2007.

i wanna use this time to let out all my

frustrating anger, problems wadsoever.

ferstly, i had been wondering if i had been

good sister.

being rude to is so hurtful, but having to ignoring

that sister of mine is way hurtful then ever.

i know she did a lot.. like.. ALOT of mistakes,

and especially being rude to me.

but i cant bear not talking to herr anymore.

but if i forgive herr and talked to herr again,

she'll evntually repeat the whole concept again.

so wads the point in giving in?

seriously, i donno whether to give in and be a good BIG sister,

or to keep ignoring herr as a bitch!

i dont like having or making enermies.

especially with my own family.

its just.. hurtful!!

i've been repeating this werd 'hurtful'

like so many times. ok bout four times,

but i mean it, its HURTFUL alright!

now thats just about herr.

wad about nann?

should i say it or should i bottle it?

i've just finished reading on andreyana's blogg.

and she had this phares written down which

sounds meaningful.

its like wads the point in sharing your problems or thoughts

just to make yourself feel better for a while?

that phrase has been repeating itself in my mind.

but i do love sharing it with iida.

she's such a sweet friend.

but everytime after sharing, i still feel bad.

GOSH.

how i wish someone would understand me.

ok. i still havent say anything about nann yet.

but i dont feel like saying it.

she's my gramms after all.

thirdly, him.

was thinking of skipping this chapter,

but, as i mentioned earlier,

i'd like to let go of everything that's been piling

up in my head so that all the examination

stuuff that i had to memorize can be filled in.

okok. back to him.

sighh.

i seriously dont wish to talk about ths subject.

but it looks like i dont have much of a choice.

ferstly, i wanna thank mirr for the sweet post in gerlfy's blogg.

secondly, yea..

its hard to get over something or someone..

whom we like..

should i say, 'treasure'?

i find him cute, gd-looking and all.

but its just that im not his type.

and guys like him wouldnt even look at gerls like me.

im such a fool of falling in love again.

well, i donno whether its love or wad.

but all i can say is, i cant get him off my mind.

GOSH.

okok.

and iida,

i still am loving you.

in fact i love you more and more each day.

i donno who i am to look for if not for you.

you're always there for me.

im feelin' so appreciated.

and all thanks to you!

LOVES.

as for nisa,

i love you double the many you cute darly!

thanks for all the advise and stuff.

after years of friendship,

i finally see the bright side of you.

that makes me treasure our friendship even more.

my kak lynn,

i think im gonna need some hugg from you.

all i get from you is one hugg till now.

notty, notty LYNN!!

haha.

and wad makes me love you triple the many is that

you're sweet, caring, and also understanding.

and you know humour! haha.

LOVE you lotsa!

and of coz,

dear deena,

all the huggs i've been receiving from you dear,

is really making me feel better.

you're not just a cuzz to me.

but also like a sister to me.

I LOVE YOU, SIS!

and last but not least,

athirr,

I LOVE YOU!!

its hard for me to continue..

Labels: my freaking thoughts.

STUDY!!

im very proud and happie for myself.

i've been preparing for the CA since last week.

coz i dont believe in 'last-minute' study.

hee.

it wont help me.

so 'last-minute' study is like not worth it

to me.

besides study,

i also wanna share some story.

its about sofie.

and.. one guy.

haha.

notty, notty, ruby!!

okok.

shan't say more bout their privacy.

okok.

gotta study for now!!

good luck and all the best to ya'll!!

wanna let go of you, but i just cant!

Saturday, March 03, 2007.

heyho everyone!

weehee~

in skool right now, in the lib.

with precious iida and chubby athirr.

just now P.E. as normal.

ran outside the skool through cashew rd.

then after that play captain's ball.

i didnt think i get to touch the ball.

hee.

then after that its english.

which is ms J never come.

so mr andrew relief us.

and so, everyone started to listen to

their own MP3 or hp's songs.

cool huh? i know!

hee.

then after english its geog.

we recap everything about the river-system.

after geog its math.

GOSH!!

you asking me can absorb not arh?

i donno lerh!

like.. 60% can.. 20% cannot, another 20%..

donno!! haha.

okok.

i've been passing all my class test,

when suddenly physics upset me!!

i failed!!

like.. WTH?!?

okok. wadever.

monday is the start of the CA.

iida planned to make a study-date tomorrow.

hopefully i'll be able to make it and

its a useful day.

coz i really am gonna need one!!

GooD LUCK FOR YOUR CA1 TO ALL!!

just so you know..

Labels: me myself and i

Thursday, March 01, 2007.

heyho!

in the lib now.

sitting wayyy further from iida and athirr.

hee.

today's great.

nothing much happened.

just that anim's been with herr new best friend lately.

so.. yea..

so i felt like so left out!

hee.

then, ok.

but then, read iida's post in the gerlfy's book.

it was so touching and nice of herr,

to say she loves me~

LOLs.

okok.

nothing much to say.

still trying to forget you, boy.

Labels: today is just another day.

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