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Wednesday, January 31, 2007.

its 6am in the morn and here i am posting.

weird huh? LOL.

my fever is getting werst.

*sigh..

i feel weird, and weak too.

but still, im strong enough to go to skool.

i dont wanna miss any lessons,

as i will not be able to catch-up with my mates.

so.. yea.

im going to skool, hopefully,

my fever wont spread around.

and hopefully this feverish wont give me ~~MIGRANE~~!!

okok, i gtg now..

i'll post again after skool.

i'll be back!

take care ya'll.

im still thinking of you.

Labels: fever.

arrrgggGGGHHHH!!

can you please stop nagging and back off?!?

i cant stand anymore!

im talking about gramms here..

after i came home,

she will definitely ask me to do something!

cant you see im tired?

im just home after skool, women!

please be considerate la!

i feel great after having a great talk with iida

and tira just now after skool,

it was fun indeed..

we were all throwing our anger out on our gramms!

lol. so jahat sia we all,

well, thats when we cant take the pain!

yea.. like i said to them,

gramms likes to say bad thing about people

to someone else..

WTF?!?

this women,

is some kind of a women who is sensitive la people!

a little bit oni, merajok.

little bit oni, merajok.

like kid sia! childish!

hey im not trynah say bad things bout her now..

but its the ~~FACT~~,

and im just trynah frust my anger!

and and,

thanks iida and tira,

for sharing me your probs too.

i feel good listening,

as though i can only lend you my ear..

sorie if i cant help much.

but i Ylove you both!

i love my gerlfy's!

Yhanim's still on top of my list ya! hee.

oh ya, i've been having the fever since fri..

and its like..

four days straight. yea. til now!

im feeling the burn in my head ryte now,

but my body, hands and legs are sooo cold!

hah! and ya, anim experience migrane before soo..

yea.. the way she describes it is the same as im experiencing it..

haha.. but she said that was when she was pri 3 or 4..

lol. way back then.. hee.

okok.. i'll stop here..

i still think of him during my prayers.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007.

malay lesson was fun, and yea..

very2 interesting..

cikgunur, my malay teacher,

organise the play..

and guess wad?

me and nad get to be the director!

woohhoo..!! i like! i like!

syazwi and suhairi ar the main character,

while the rest;

hanim, fifi, hudz, naz, naziroh, zikri,

sufi, hakim, and hanisah, are the one who will

play the background. hee.

the practice starts this wed,

for every malay period.

haha. and and,

iida, mira and insyirah

are the one recording the act as

in filming.. like camera woman! haha..

budak dari kelas fatimah rocker!

sebok aje! lol.

jk.jk..

den tira jealous, and wanted to join..

and so, fatimah rocker agreed upon letting her

join us. weeeeee.

cant wait! hee.

Labels: the play.

Monday, January 29, 2007.

listening to: HURT

this song gets me into tears as i recall the great moment i had wif late.

i miss him! sobsob.

i terribly miss him!

i want him.

to comfort me,

as he usually did,

when im down.

but now,

i felt lonely,

and lonelier,

as there is no one to replace my COMFORTer.

if only..

yes,

if only,

he was still alive,

i would have share all my problems wif late.

ouh yes i would.

i will share every single detail,

and wouldnt dare missed out any.

how i wish..

i would take him as my bestfren and great pal.

he will be my one and only,

ferst ever guy i trust!

*sigh..

how teribly,

i missed him.

gramps.can you hear me?

can you hear the whining in me?

calling for you?

for your company?

for you comfort?

*sigh..

if only,

he could hear me.

I DO MISS HIM!!

Labels: hurt.

Saturday, January 27, 2007.

thanks iida for that post in gerlfy's blog..
lurp ya! but i dont think i can
get rid of him off my mind la gerl..
so complicated!! *sighh..

so skool was ok yesterday.. had P.E.
for the first two periods..
2.4 in the rain like WOAH!! hee.
but me and hanim not running..
i got fever, hanim's ankle pain..

yea.. then i still ran the ferst round
to warm-up..
but then my fever get werst..
i feel my head like wanna ~~explode~~ la sia!
haha..

then after P.E. is english..
went to AVA to play volleyball..
yea.. ms joseph is so cool! weehee..
my group includeds anim, rosa and oo thu..
eun jin came late.. its like the last period
then she arrive.. lol. might as well dont come right..

then after eng is geog..

bored..!! so..

SKIP!!

after geog recess, after that is Amath..

last subject of the day!!

after skool, i have malay vedio editing program..

so we slacked around in skool..

tira went fer st.john[im happy for herr

for not following my footsteps in skipping training]..

lol..

then, while waiting for teachers, guess wad?

~~MIGRAINE~~!!

i was like.. shutting my eyes aallooootttt!!

and ask iida if she have minyak kapak??

but too bad la..

yeapp.. the program is so interesting la..

i dont regret in coming even though the migraine

thingy.. SKIP!!

it is so nice having a friend like jerome!

he lent us his laptop!

aww.. so cool.. and nice.. and sweet.. lol.

thats how my day went yesterday!!

weeeeeeeee~

P.S: i love sing yin more and more each day! Y

woots!

Labels: skool.

Friday, January 26, 2007.

i've so many things to out wif.. but im just to lazy to type!! im in no mood larh. still thinking bout wad happened yesterday after skool.. *sigh.. no mood la!! so many hmwk!! gramms nagging..!! HIM..!! and lastly.. migraine..?? okok.. wadever..

Thursday, January 25, 2007.

ferst of all, i wanna apologies to iida, for not replying is that guy the one she asked me or not.. coz i know she will truly know who he is.. its not that i wanna hide everything from you gerlfy's.. you have every right to question me and all as you are my gerlfy's, you are my best, you are my dears, who are always there for me.. but do you know when you remind me about him, it terrbly hurts.. im seriously wanna forget him as i really wanna concentrate on studies ferst.. its really the most important thing for me right now.. and im really really sorie iida.. i really cant help it but to go offline and shut the mood of chatting anymore.. i wanna be alone for now..

i really think i should just clean forget him!

Labels: sorie iida. him.

just now in skool,tummy aches again.. like hell! haha.. okok.. wadever.. people still wont know wad/how i feel though..

btw.. i have the feelings of pissed + fcuked up..!! *sigh.. i cant seem to get him outta my mind, yea.. HIM!! that guy.. neither gerl, les, nor gay!! he's a guy!! ok.. im crapping ryte now.. yea.. i donno why but i've been influecing myself to never think about him and to forget him.. but.. oh WTH?!?

just now after skool, saw him.. and so.. turned back.. and head home instead of going to buy drink.. if you gerlfys/peeps knows who the heck im referring to, then keep to youself.. i dont need you to talk to me about this topic either.. here i am trynah forget him, dont you dare talk about him!!

*sigh.. its like.. whenever my eyes/head turn.. its always him.. but why him?? why his face? why not someone else? this whole guy-gerl-thingy is getting on my nerve! and adding up to my stress.. okok.. i've promised not to complain about stress..

*sigh.. my day is just sway? or should i say my ~~YEAR~~?? btw.. 3e2' 07 rawks larh sey! wooohoooo!! yea!! hee. its cool having cool people like huda, fifi, rosa, eunjin, nad, naz, and many others.. yea.. im starting to get along fine with my mates..

ouh ya! i've got a new classmate from pakistan.. her name is KHUSHBA or KHUSHPA.. something like that.. she insist on us calling her khushi.. thats more like it! hee. she's a pretty and sweet gerl.. yeapp.. she's even cute! haha.. okok..

think i should clean forget bout him..?

Labels: him.class.herr.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007.

so little time, yet so many stories to tell, and i dont even know where to start??
well, i'll just recap wad happened..

SUNDAY
religious skool from 8 till 12pm.. proceed to wedding invitation.. farhan and fam were already there.. then after a while, kak weena and fam arrive.. they look gorgeous la babe! hee. especially kak reeta.. so sweet yet so cute.. sharome[cuzz from sydney] was there too.. okok.. back to buisness.. ermm.. then after a while there, dad pick us up and send us home, and uncle harris took the shift from there..

MONDAY
it was a stressful day, in fact, everyday is a stressful day!! its always have something to do with math?!? uurggghhh!! but but, i do love math.. hee. its just.. so confusing la sia.. *sigh.. then after skool, tummy aches like hell! i was there complaining how pain it is infront of the toilet, but still i wont dare to check[you gerls know wad i mean].. hee. and so.. went home, on the way home.. cant take the pain, and so.. i walk like hell.. haha.. seriously.. i thought i wanna stop walking in the middle of the werld when im ALMOST home.. and so.. i continued and lucky me, i made it home! hee. and i checked..!! i was shocked..!! im ~~NOT~~ on PERIOD larh!! haha.. seriously.. i thought i was.. okok.. wadever.. and gramms make my day SWAY!! im stress!! like almost any kid around?!? guess wad i've been through when she's around?? NAG and NAG larh of coz..!! i really cant take it.. its either i want her outta my house[chey, uma aku sey!! haha].. or i'll leave the house and stay elsewhere.. and i still donno wads in my mind?!? *sigh.. i've severe ties with that bitch.. i dont want to severe ties with gramms.. guess wad gramms did this morn? she gave each of us $5!! and guess wad i did with that $$?? i put in my save larh!! haha.. yea.. i've been saving.. adding up around $80 now?? still so little amount.. guess i'll hafta continue saving? haha.. then had my lucnh.. was so hungry larh sia.. ate 'something' called sambal belacan.. after a few moment.. my eyes starts to swell like hell!! haha.. and so, im allegic to BELACAN!! grrr. well, hopefully the next day my days will get better..

TUESDAY
eyes swell getting bigger and bigger.. as soon as i finished showering, momsie saw my eyes and said no need to go to skool, go see doc instead.. but i was so degel coz today after skool got extra math lesson, and how on earth am i gonna catch up with others if im absent today..?? and so, went to skool with my ~~PRETTY~~ eyes.. haha.. as time fly pass by, the swallon disappear.. yeapp.. after skool, thought of having lunch in the canteen, but.. *blerghh.. hee. and so went home straight after skool[so-called good girl!! lol.]..

i think thats all larh.. hee.

Labels: sunday.monday.tuesday.

Sunday, January 21, 2007.

im currently sick now! arrgghhh!! my head pain, migraine or something larh! flu!
and hot hot hot!! i mean, fever! urrgghhh!! im gonna take a short nap now..
i think its from the studies at skool has been so stress for me lately..
need a rest..

to be continued..

im back! well, cant really sleep, but i do get some useful rest though.. hmm.. mum SMS me and said she told me to mop the floor not sofie.. i was so pissed at her at that time! how could she scolded me not to do housework when im sick?!? shucks!! then can SMS somemore! hmpf!

mumsie doesnt ~~ALWAYS~~ take the pain in my head seriously.. there's once when it hurts terribly, she said; 'alah, ngade2.. menyampah!' i was like.. hey woman, it hurts!! gosh.. how could she say that? where on earth can you find such a mother who treat a daughter's illness for fun? huh? tell me!

seriously.. i cant take it anymore.. ferst that bitch!! now comes the second bitch?!? look, i dont like critisizing people alright ESPECIALLY those from my own ~~FAMILY~~!! arrgghhhh!! *sigh.. even friends..?? can they tell whether it hurts or not?? of coz not.. they're not in my shoes how can they feel the pain?

im soo fcuked up! sometimes it strikes during skool hours, but the most gerlfy's can do is to ask whether im fine? its not that im asking for anything, just that even my fellow friends cant help me.. am i gonna lead my life with these toturing and suffocating way??

can i ever bear with it?? will i ever feel like throwing my life away? would i be brave enough when i day i cant take it anymore and fell infront of everyone in the public and wont be waking up ~~EVER~~ again?? *sigh.. im sure im not ready to give up everything.. but i cant handle it anymore.. i cant handle the pain!!

who can ever feel wad i feel like? *sigh..

Labels: the pain.

Saturday, January 20, 2007.

that morning.. the day AFTER i vowed to ~~hate~~ that bitch, well, not forever i guess, that particular morning.. i mean.. yea.. that particular morning, told dad to inform that bitch go to skool with sofie coz she's not even ready yet and she's late[real excuse was i dont wanna go to skool with her!!]..

but daddy insist on me waiting for her..!! i was sooo ~~PISSED~~ off that very morning! she havent even changed into uniform and im waiting outside the house..?? like.. WTF?!? wadever gerl! i didnt go against daddy coz im so pampered to him you see.. hee. yea.. we're close alright.. sometimes, he'll give me wad i wanted, but sometimes he'll consider ferst, and at times, he'll ignore when he knows i was joking.. haha.. yea..

i always ex-change coins with dad coz he needs them for cabbie ex-changing with passengers you see.. but like i said.. daddies too pampered to me whenever i gave him $9 coins or below, he will return me $10 notes in change.. haha.. cool ryte?? yeapp.. and whenever i pity him so much when he's back from werk i give him a massage! haha.. thats how pampered [or so-called spoilt] i am with daddy!

i love him lots larhs! whenever im in no-good-mood, he will crack some jokes and make me laugh, and i end up being cheerful.. haha.. yea.. i really owe alot to daddy, and mumsie, of coz.. so i really happen to think for my future up ahead.. still considering wad i wanna be when i grow-up?? *sigh..

decisions.. decisions.. btw, daddy always ready to sacrifise picking up passenger by sending me to skool in his new cabbie! woohhhoo..!! I AM SOOOO ~~PAMPERED~~!! haha.. yea! not send until skool but just near anims house coz he knows im going to skool with dear anim.. yea.. lots of my family members were/are related to hers too you know.. lets see..

hanan[anim's second bro], was sofie's friend, well, was or is, i donno.. daddie and uncle harris are both cabbie's driver and both partners or the same cabbie, which means, daddie took the full time and if uncle harris wanna drive, he'll take the night-shift.. get it?? haha.. then mumsie and herr mum are friends too! yea.. cool ryte?? ive been friends with herr since we were two huh? hmm.. coz when sofie was 4, i was 2, and whenever mum send sofie to skool, i tagged along and make friends with anim, syiqin, afidah and lots more..

yea.. but now not so close to syiqin and fidah but we're still friends, arent we? yea.. then then, back to daddies pampered-NESS! hee. he even sacrifise a time when he was driving on werk hours, he send me and gerlfy's to bugis to buy something.. yea.. cool ryte? he let gerlfy's board in HERR!! OMG! haha.. [well, dad insist that the big new cabbie of his is his new-GERL!] haha.. yea.. ask gerlfy's..?? they ~~REALLY~~ in their life board dad's precious gerl! haha.. ok i know there will be people who will.. 'ok.. its just a cab mind you, wadever gerl! '.. haha.. yea.. wadever peepss!

well, im quite ~~jealous~~ though now that daddy have his own new precious.. but im still his ferst? ryte, ryte?? haha.. okok.. till then, weeeeeeee~

Thursday, January 18, 2007.

gramms return here now.. which means.. its gonna add-up to my stress!! ARRRGGGHHHHHH!! help..!! *lonnggg ssiigghhhh.. cant go on anymore, i cant help it! i cant hold on to it any longer.. do i hafta let go?? somebody.. someone, help! i dont mind if you're willing to just listen.. *sigh.. who would do that? i wanna be a changed person, but im not! im still the same, the not-so-independent type! haizz..

im so fcuked up with my laptop! GGGRRRRR..!! full of virus! damn it! guess i really dont take good care of it? SKIP!

so skool was great.. just that.. AMath.. gosh! im stress olready.. i dont wish to drop AMath as its a fun and interesting subject.. but its like so confusing and diff.. well.. not so diff larh.. hee. i love math.. coz its like a challenge to me.. i love solving problems.. SKIP!

still not talking to 'the bitch'.. SKIP!

why should i ever come across a sugject which i will hafta skip eventually? gosh.. cant i think straight? well, as a matter of fact, i cant! thats wad happens to me when im ~~STRESS~~ larh people.. gosh, and why do i always keep complaining bout stress? its a sec three werk larh gerl.. sec three hafta go through stress to make through sec 4.. yea.. wadever.. SKIP!

gosh! i did it again! well, ~~SHIT~~ ALWAYS HAPPEN! ryte? haha.. okok.. huda is back in skool.. glad that she's feeling better.. now that nadhirah had a fever.. *sigh.. pity herr..

got lotsa hmwk larh! bubye..!!Y

Tuesday, January 16, 2007.

i survived for almost four.. oh no.. its three.. eh? no.. its three.. idk larh.. around there la.. three days not talking to that bitch who share the same blood as me! im like.. olright! way to go gerl! but.. i shouldnt have post it about her.. all the taggs were pity on herr.. should take pity on me instead larh people..! im the victim here! she's the culprit olright! *sigh..

okok.. i'll hafta admit larh people.. all this 'not talking to herr and stuff' are making me guilty.. gee. hate to admit it.. but i hate herr, well, still? idk. im like.. so confused..!! ok people. lets have some problem solving aite.. if i have homewerk ~~PLUS~~ parents ~~PLUS~~ sisters ~~PLUS~~ studies.. wad do i get? well, my answer is ~~STRESS~~ larh, of coz! *sigh..

cant take it anymore larhs..! i feel like wanna have conference tonight with my gerlfy's but.. *sigh. you people wont understand.. by the time they call me, im all cheerful and nothing to talk about.. but whenever im down, seriously i feels like spilling every werd to them.. gosh.. idk wad's in my head ryte now..

should i just concentrate on studies for my future and ignore my parents, siblings, and stuff.. and someone end up getting hurt?? or respect my parents decision and put my future aside? im like.. ~~WTF~~?? gosh.. this BIG thinking is like so fucked outta me! seriously should i or should i not have conference with my gerlfy's..??

there are so many reasons of why i wanna conference with them and why i don wanna conference with them.. well, if you wanna know.. here it begins;
reasons for wanting to conference with them;
-i miss them and wanna talk to them.
-i really need them ryte now!
-i donno who to talk to ryte now coz im bored!
-coz i love the humour made by tira.
-i cant resist the way we joke in the phone.
-we have so many "sto's" that we dont mind sharing with.

reasons for NOT-wanting to conference with them;
-by the time they call me, i'd forget the whole incident of my prob and wont say anything.
-i dont think the gerls will comfort me as i feel down before and they turn the other way round end up blaming me.
-the way they talk to me is not the way i expected[as in they dont really feel wad i feel]??
*there are lots more but i dont want gerlfy's to feel dissapointed/sorry for me because of this..

SKOOL STUFFS
well.. skool was fun and interesting.. class councellor is mrs lim[new teacher], she teach S.S. and his for my class.. one thing i cant resist is that she's cute larhs! haha.. english, ms joseph, she rawks! haha.. the whole idea of classroom is being rubbed of and its an office of a werking place.. we hafta act like a rookie[beginner of a werker] journalist.. yea.. cool.. we have like name tags on our desk and its ms and mr.. cool.. EMath and AMath is mrs lim..

pure bio mrs goh[new teacher], physics, ms yong[she's cute too you know!], chem, mrs teo.. Geog, Mdm suriani.. PE, mr Ong!! wwooohhhhoooo!! COOL..!! hha..

well, the lessons and all are so fun and interesting as i already mentioned earlier.. but its so stressful larhs! *sigh.. i love learning new stuffs.. but today, just a few days after reopening of skool, like i cant take it oready sia! *sigh.. well, im still in one piece!

so.. yea.. i'll just end here..

ruByoL___*Y

P.S.: seriously, im like.. fcuking needing someone to talk to ryte now!

Labels: that bitch, this and that.

Sunday, January 14, 2007.

why must you be so rude to me?
i have feelings too you know!
who do you think i am?
animal?
creature?
im your elder ~~SISTER~~ larh mind you!
i've been so kind to you and forgive for all the
hurtful things you've done to me before.
but this time you've gone too far!
i cant take it.
you treat me as if im your younger sister, worst!
maybe not as a family of yours!
when you have trouble in skool.
who do you look for? ME.
when you were in primary skool for the ferst time and you cried,
who do you look for? ME.
when you have homework problems,
who do you look for? ME.
when you're bored and wanna some entertainment,
whose laptop do you borrow? MINE.
well, of all the nerve of being rude to me!
i ~~hate~~ you!
ouh yes i do!
after this i know there will be times when you
follow your mood when you wanna be angry at me you will shout at me,
and when you wanna be kind towards me you will
respect me. NO.! i hate that. its your job as a younger sister of
mine to ALWAYS respect me.
do you know that your attitude makes me feel that i DONT have
a younger sister?
that i dont feel like an elder sister?
that i dont even feel the love from a sister.
what for i have so many sisters?
it SUX!
i dont mean sofie of coz.
she ofteen helps me too.
i know she really cares even though sometimes she not in a good
mood. its just that she dont feel so close to me?
izit..? well, who cares!
well, its all your fault larh gerl!
yes! i hate you!
dont respect me when you wanna use my things or need help.
respect me as im your elder sis!
if you still wont change your attitude towards me and sofie,
guess you'll have no more ME as you elder sister even if sofie
still accepts your att.!
i wont be your part of fam, thats coz i hate you!
and no im not cruel you fucker bitch! i just hate you.!
dont you talk to me again!
its better if we were born of diff parents.
i like it that way.
that way you wont be so rude and cruel towards me.
you will treat me as a stranger and be nice to me.
luckily i have farlini as my adopt sis and not
my real sis. if she is my real sis, i donno if we'll
get along..?
*sigh..
how i wish i leave with just a pair of parents with NO siblings to
share my parents love.
that way my parents will give love and attention only to me!
hah! dream on gerl!
i really hate you gerl!
so what if my gerlfy's says yu look alike me!
i hate you to the core!
i hate you more then my enermy!
seriously, when im angry, I ~~DONT~~ LIE!
so too bad! i've made my decision to hate you more than enough!
im free now to call you bitch.
call you fucker.
call you anything i want.
and i dont mind sayig it infront of gramm and mom.
coz they heard you being rude and cruel towards me.
so lets see if they scold me for what i say to you or call you.
lets see their reactions.
will they say im cruel?
will they say im rude towards my own sister?
will they see me as a childish person?
coz i dont care and i dont give a damn!
when i hate you, i ~~HATE~~ you.!
you dummy!fuck!bitch!
just fuck off!
yea so what if people say im critisizing my own sister.?
hey! ferstly, you're not my sister anymore, bear that in mind gerl!
secondly, i hate you! so who cares if i talk bad bout you?
therdly, im washing my hands off you!
lastly, im done!

Saturday, January 13, 2007.

i've edit some pics a few days ago.

i'll upload soon.
here we go~

will stay as memories~

the olden days Y

that day.

small pieces join us together..

Y shine the light through me~

Y remain as memories~

Marlieyana

dollyiida hearts rubyol

the hatred in me~

happie moments

gerlfy's

it says everything~

cause someone's been watching~

will miss my 2e3~

Wednesday, January 10, 2007.

supp there people!! im so excited for what happens in skool today.. not excited as in happy but excited as in.. well.. excited larh.. like.. so kanchiong!! hahaha.. okok.. i'll tel you what happen larh ok?? well.. yesterday after skool anim told me she donno where herr hp is.. she could even ask me did she bring herr hp?? haha.. i was like.. hey im not the guardian of your hp or something.. haha.. so she still couldnt find herr hp.. so yesterday night when she called me i asked herr if she had found it.. she still couldnt find it.. awwww.. poor thing.. hee. then today.. guess what happen? huda's hp and $20 LOST larh people!! gosh.. so pity herr.. not only that.. eun jin's mp3 *or izit ipod nano?? haha.. when missing too.. she got so sad coz she just bought it you know!! yea.. so actually we stayed back for our photo-taking for our class-photo comp.. but since mrs lim insist that most of them are not in the mood so.. yea.. went off.. pity them.. and lucky me!! okok.. im tired too you know! so.. till then..

weeeeeeeeee~

ruByoL___*Y

Saturday, January 06, 2007.

therd day.. was just the same thing.. in and out of class.. to the hall!! *duh.. haha.. nothing much happen today.. was bored though at skool.. sitting arrangement was changed.. ALREADY..?!? *sigh.. i sat with sandra.. yea.. she's cool.. the so-called aussie gerl.. haha.. the way she speaks.. gosh.. even that ayam.. cannot beat herr! hah! okok.. not much larhs.. bubye!!

weeeeeee~
ruBYoL___*Y

Friday, January 05, 2007.

woke up around 0536hrs?hmm.. doing the same thing as yesterday.. shower.. then pray the ferst prayer of the day *subuh. then wanna eat breakfast cause lazy larh wanna eat in skool.. *diet kate kan.. haha.. so sit in the living room but then.. the pain in my head strike again.. *damn! so rest my head on the dining table.. i looked up fer awhile but cant open my eyes big big.. nann and mummy saw me and asked head-ache again? well.. they knew bout my head.. but take-NOTHING-in-action.. duh.. haha.. then mummy knows the pain was so serious when she finished asking suddenly water rolled down my cheek.. *OMG!! am i ~~crying~~?? no!!im not.. i donno whats that either.. cause whenever the pain strikes.. my head will feel soo.. and i mean.. SOOOOO hot!! so when it attacks i will have flu.. it melts something inside and come out from my nose.. *eeewww.. i know.. disguisting.. so people.. when you so me sneezing or what.. im not havin' flu ya!! haizz.. then i think its because of that something came out of my eyes too.. i dont think its tears.. cause i know im not crying.. i think my head was too hot.. ouh ya!! remember that i said when the pain strikes it feels like bursting?? well bursting should feel hot ryte?? well.. why am i explaining here anyway.. would anyone care reading it? *hah! even if anyone read it.. wad can they do?? haizz.. i've read something about migraine *is that how you spell it? the illness migraine is similar as wad my head is going through ryte now.. eh.. wait!! why do i even bother explaining further? ok.. enough gerl!! so after water roll down my cheek ~~CONTINUOUESLY~~.. mum said rest at home.. dont go to skool if the pain feel like hell.. so yea.. now im ok.. joking around wif imann.. he's ~~cute~~ though.. haha.. im crazy.. i've realised it now?? *like duh.. haha.. i mean.. its fun joking with him.. ~~ALONE~~.. as in.. lin and shasha is not here to disturb us.. haha. cool.. i likeY.. i likeY.. okok.. ermm.. now he just salam me he's going to skool.. haha.. he couldnt wait to go to skool.. guess he loves going to skool? okok.. till then ya people..

weeeeeeeee~

ruByoL___*Y

Thursday, January 04, 2007.

momsie said everything.. to me.. to sofie.. to lin and shasha?? hmm.. they were ~~listening~~ to our conversation and ~~interrupt~~! *hmpf..!! yea.. so wadever.. yeapp.. back to mummy's story here.. yesterday went to plaza and had our lunch at KFC.. hee.. then while eating mommy said something ~~hurtful~~ about second uncle.. sigh.. mummy and herr siblings had meetings at aunt's a few days before.. discussing about.. well.. its ~~private~~ larh! hee.. tell you some details ya.. well.. second uncle ~~promised~~ mummy to get the dustbin in the kitchen [dustbin to throw rubbish so that bangla can pick up].. but then.. his wife.. my so-called auntie lorr.. smsed mumsie.. asking.. 'sis, you want to pay me ferst for the dustbin or pay later?'.. my mum shocked like hell.. how can they asked for money? i was shocked too la.. pity mummy.. now she said she doesnt want anything.. and i mean ANYTHING from second uncle and his wife.. *sigh.. im like.. WTF??!!?? seriously.. dad too thinks that way.. stop asking second uncle fer help.. yeapp.. he ~~sux~~ big time! opps.. sorie cuzz..!! duh.. wadever.. well.. my ferst aunt, ferst uncle, second uncle and therd uncle truly doesnt ~~care~~ what mummy go through ryte now.. well.. idk if they care or not.. but their attitudes and expressions and and tone[the way they talk to mum] is like they dont care! *long sighh.. now that aunts and uncles[beside mumsie] are all having their own 'so-called' werld.. fine.. have wadever you people want.. dont come to mummy or nann fer help or wadsoever.. i was beginning to hate you people now!! *hmpf! ok.. thats beside mom.. now.. dad's side.. ~~WORST~~ i should say?? haizz.. they dont ~~care~~ what dad is going through at all!! not even one of them i should say? its a long, and i mean ~~LOOOOOONNNG~~ story.. i dont wish to expose anything about my fam's privacy? but i seriously begin to feel each and everyone of them with ~~Yhatred~~!! its like.. making me left with no cuzz!! left with only my fajar cuzz.. seriously without them i donno who to call cuzzin.. well.. maybe no one? haizz.. okok.. dont wish to ruin the reputation of my aunts and uncles! so sorie if my werds have hurt or pissed you off.. cause im just stating the fact.. i dont have the ~~TIME~~ to tell FAKE stories.. so yea.. accept the fact that its the ~~FACT~~!!

ruByoL___*Y

ferst day of skool.. sigh.. i feel half-SUX.. half-great!! haha.. like what sia.. well.. i feel the SUXness cause.. people stare at me for my UUUURRGGGGHHHH short hair?? hah!! so what if its so short?? and ugly..?? and and does it make your eyes go 'TWENG??' *popping out.. yea.. hate it.. feeling half-great cause its my ferst time being a 'NERD'.. *kwang3.. yea.. whatever.. its like.. we hafta face the fact.. if we're meant to be *UUURGGGGHHH.. so be it.. what for we wanna act being great and cool?? like duhh.. hah!! yea.. i feel great being myself just now in skool.. but people.. i hate that 'ouh so cute' phrase!! it makes me wanna puke larh!!yeapp.. being a nerd doesnt mean im stupid ya people! bear that in mind.. nerd as in appearance.. but my mind is still fresh!! haha.. yea.. whatever.. and im feeling the greatness cause i met new friends new classmates new class new teacher!! but that doesnt mean i forget my gerlfy'sY, my wonderful 2006 2e3, and my wonderful 2006 teachers?!? i'll heart them forever ya people!! wooohohooo..!!haha.. okok.. hmm.. so bored.. so many things to say yet so little time i've got.. my laptop always shuts by itseld.. and i hafta start all over again.. i hafta save to draft half-way i type for this post!! hah! im gonna send back to the company cause its 3 years warranty.. year.. wadever.. ok.. so i'll brief through what my mind tells me..

so as you people may know what i've said earlier in some of other post.. my bedroom ceiling is falling apart! OMG!! haha.. okok.. so im now at nann's room.. yeapp.. cause when the ceiling dropped opened.. nann was at penang.. celebrate hari raya haji there.. yea.. so me and sofie took over herr MASTER-bedroom.. woohooooo..!! haha.. whatever.. somehow i miss my bedroom larhs!! haha.. okok.. then mummy explained everything to nann already and so she return to singapore and sleep at aunt's house..

but today sofie went home after skool suddenly found out that nann came home.. sigh.. where's my freedom gone to?? haizz.. she moved everything.. and i mean ~~EVERYTHING~~ in my bedroom to herr master-bedroom.. and move some of herr's to mine.. cause she's sleeping alone so she'll changed the position of the bed and sleep at my room.. i pity herr seeing herr doing all the heavy werks.. carry here carry there.. i wanna help but gosh!! im tired after skool la people!! sigh.. i helped out a bit.. yea.. a bit.. at least.. so.. here i am blogging while she buzy nagging and directing us what to do.. hah! my butt is not moving nann! sorie! im dead tired! weeeeeeee~

hee.. im bad? nope.. dont judge me wrong-O! okok.. back to that topic..

yea.. so mumsie said that nann was such a 'STONE-HEAD'.. haha.. so mummy helped out to.. pity mummy..!! awwwww.. haha.. okok.. im mad.. at everything.. everything doesnt seem right lately.. *sigh.. ouh yarr.. i think he saw me with my short hair.. so that makes him not recognise me even more.. i know.. im sooo ~~stupid~~!! eeerggggghhh..!! wadever la.. i've cut my hair liao! cannot join back.. ryte?? haha.. yea.. im great! im still in one piece.. ok people.. im tired! think im gonna take a short napp? hmm.. think i'll rest larh.. nap and nap.. means.. fat and fat! hahahaha..!! okok.. enough.. bubye ya'll!!

weeeeeeeeee~

RuByoL___*Y

Wednesday, January 03, 2007.

to all fajarians[including sec 1s].. guess i'll be seeing you guys tomorrow? hee.. its like.. weeeeeeeee~ so happy and excited and nervous and and scared and not ready and ready[wad the hell im talking about la gerl?] haha.. ready and not-ready at the same time?? i mean.. ready cause im excited to meet my new-classmetes!! and not-ready cause starting of skool means starting of ~~LECTURING~~.. hah.. you know wad i mean..??sigh.. nvm.. as long as i get to see my gerlfy'sY larhs!! wwooohohoo.. at last! meet them! haah.. ok.. till then..

weeeeeeeeee~
ruByoL___*Y

Monday, January 01, 2007.

YHAPPIE NEW YEAR!!Y

happie new year ya people!! wooohhhhooo..!! guess i wanna change.. i wanna be a changed person.. guess i've change my ~~hair~~?? haha.. the ~~ugly~~ version?? hahaha.. erm.. yea.. start afresh.. but i'll definitely miss 2006.. my wonderful classmates and teachers.. the great and fun and unforgettable memories we had together oh~ so sad.. haha.. ok?? like.. duh.. and.. wadever gerl!! haha.. gtg,.. bubye!!

weeeeeeeeee~
ruByoL___*Y

SLAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI

ya people! enjoy!

so me and family famzy went to aunts condo.. gramps was staying there so visit him there.. while visiting him.. guess what else we did there?? swimming of cause! haha.. cool.. and ~~COLD~~..!! brrrrr.. yea.. was shivering in the water.. yea.. and guess what people..!?! i've learnt how to swim! woohhoo.. cool.. but but.. learnt how to float oni.. lol.. hmm.. yea.. then when to al-azhar fer dinner.. saw nizam[sec 4] with fam.. then saw sharome too! gosh i ~~miss~~ him like hell sia! haha.. ask him if he recognise me.. he said no.. aww.. so sad.. haha.. he recognise shasha a bit.. but but.. his dad.. he could still recognise daddy.. cool.. yea.. sharome was as tall as me.. yea.. he's only primary 5 dude! woah.. cool.. and he said he's still in the rugby team.. yea he said the pronounciation there is 'RUG-BYE' haha.. cool huh?? after saying our goodbyes.. hired cabbie went home.. woohhoo.. im tired!

buzy snapping here and there..

ouh ya.. im not uploading my pics cause..

my hair ~~sux~~! hah.. yea.. i've cut my hair..

so short sia.. sigh.. and people! stop saying im cute in it?!?

its urrgghh..

disguisting!! haha.. yea..

weeeeeee~

ruByoL___*

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