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Chindon Malay.
31st March.
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Monday, April 30, 2007.

"just go and fcuk off, *****!!" - she said.

HAPPIE CUTIE 5TH BIRTHDAY, IMANN SHAH!
I SOOOO LOVE HIM SEY! Y

Saturday, April 28, 2007.

"move along.. move along till we make it through." - she said.

P.E. was fun. today was boys turn to do their 5 stations. we gerls did our own stuffs. some was buzy supporting the boys. while me anim fif hudzie banu eunjin and banu was like playing catching. haha. CHILDISH? nah! lols. missed my childhood days sey. i love huda, with her 'marlie-darlie' thingy. haha. so cute larh sey.
english was fine. geog? like gee larh sey. im starting to decrease my interest in this particular subject. she teach like cannot understand like that. any geog student who is able to help me? sheesh. pathetic sia. will go bully that cousin of mine. lols. math? confusing sey at times. but i still manage to understand at the end of the day. a big SMILE for that. =)
athirr me and anim stayed back due to boreness. went to canteen to eat. hugged suhailah and went to the lib. did a bit of work, hugged Lynn and off we go. went to a space where there's whiteboard, chairs and tables behind the AVA theatre on the third floor. we joked around and i taught anim some mathematics. before that i wrote; "Logarithms: taught by MISS TOOT." at the top of the board.
then a few minutes later mr tong appeared. he came over but athirr and anim ignored and continued doing their own stuff, while i was buzy laughing away. WHY?? because there's a teacher looking at what you're writing in the board with this pharse: "...taught by: MISS TOOT." lols. and i was waiting for mr tong to asked about that. then he said: "taught by MISS TOOT??" haha.
and yea, we laughed our arses off olright! and after a few hours, we played hangman. athirr is such a good player for this. hee. like fun sey! then decided to go home cause lightning and tunders are like forcing us to! sheesh. but i saw zahidah, and so, i promed if she wanna go home together. and we did.
anim lent us herr umbrella. so sweet right? lols. thanks gerlfriend! and yea, its nice walking home with someone. like what rosa said, I HATE WALKING HOME ALONE like that. gees. and yea, so here i am blogging away.

"i terribly need help with my science(s)!" - she said.

Friday, April 27, 2007.

"always.. always.. and forever...." - she said.

skool was just as per normal. first period was english. as always, ms J would joke around to wake us up. and somehow, i worked, for me. lol. was in groups. as usual, i was with eunjin rosa and anim. rosa and eunjin somehow always disagree with one another. gee. haha. after eng was malay. two periods free due to our teacher was absent. went to the lib and we played some silly games. lol. its somehow rather fun i should say. it reminds me of my childhood days larh sey. a big wink for that! =) errr.

after malay was math. like gee sey. new topic means new set of brain. gosh. STRESS..!! but i still love math or rather somehow. haha. crazy me. after math was recess. after recess was geog. sat with terence again. like always. he fell asleep for a few minutes. and i dont wanna disturb him coz i know he's got a lot of work and he's leading stress like.. worst than normal teenagers do. so... yea. after geog was bio. *bleerrrggghh* haha. the 'non-stop-fullstop'. lol. after bio was physics. like gee sey this trainee teacher. teach very fast sia like cannot absorb like that.

after physics was home sweet home but my class got so-called 'math-date' with mrs lim at 3.00pm so.. yea. me and anim went down to canteen to have our lunch first. went up and did some assignments. and a TEST. haha. STRESS!!! i can see that mark on syazwi face. poor thing sey. and guess wad? sofie said she passed by our class and noticed that everyone was like soo quiet and sooo concentrated on their lessons. gee. which is why i didnt noticed her passing by. lols. but too bad she didnt saw me and zik who is SITTING BY THE WINDOW?? ahha. gee. sofie?? okok. err.

after extra class anim got this 'student-council' meeting and asked me to wait. and so, i decided to wait for herr in the canteen. but on the way to canteen, saw sofie. asked herr if she wanna go home with me. went down to canteen and joined fif and 'nadhirrr'. hees. i love them larhs. they have their unique way of joking and laughing. lols. after a while, anim came down. so i hugged fifi, andreyana and hudzie before leaving. seriously, its nice hanging around with them even though we're not close. hee. and yea.. HOME SWEET HOME.

"sofie misses someone like that. teehee!~" - she said.

Thursday, April 26, 2007.

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO APRIL BABIES!
- imann.
- miyyah.
- anyone elsesss??
HAAH!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007.

"...lets not kill the karma!" - she said.

huggie from Lynn is soooo appreciated. i love herr, can? hees. didnt see kiDd and Ej today. the saddest thing. gee. miss them. but anyways, skool today is as per normal. luckily i took a day off ytd. have a break. and i did well today in skool. i mean.. i can concentrate and all. but i'll still need help for my science(s)!! LOLs. i needa self-study. yes, A SELF-STUDY. not a study-date no more. like gee larh. i cant really do my work having my crazy bunch of friends with me. we'll eventually end up talking, laughing and even joking. haha. but it isnt anyones fault olright! i mean, you people whom i studied with dont take it to heart. hees. i seriously needa self-study. where im all alone quietly where no one disturbs. hees. okok. wanna write some note to a friend here. so here we go;

to [insert name]:
hey you. firstly, i wanna make it clear to anyone who is reading this that I AM NOT CRITISIZING THIS PERSON! ok? now lets get down to buisness. im sure you know by now that MOST people dislikes you, right? and you even loss lots of friends, right? look, i really understand how you feel coz me myself would feel like shit if i were like you. like lonely like that, right? im sure you wanna gain all your beloved friends back right? but first, you should know where you went wrong before you say you wanna change. its your attitude. you know how your attitude is, so dont you dare ask me. second, apologise to those whom you made them feel like shit throughout your times being together. and i assure you that if you apologise and PROMISE something, you'll eventually gain your friendship that you've lost. and PROMISE this; to change that bull**** attitude of yours, and to treat everyone equally like how you'd like to be treated. GOT IT? if you apologise and vowed the promise that you'd made, im sure we'll be happy for you. and not only that, you musnt go back on your words. people like you for who you are. not for what you are. they are two different thing. so.. yea. and, if you know that im talking about you, hate me if you want. i just wanna wake you up from a disaster dream you're dreaming right now. oks? and if you know that im talking about you, people dont feel shy or hesitate to confront me or anyone. just make that promise in front of us and we're back as your friend.

Monday, April 23, 2007.

"....cause i got you, babe." - she said.

end up not going to skewl. i woke up early thinking that i'll be going to skewl like everyday would. but all those homeworks, worksheets, books and all makes me wanna puke. so i guess going to skewl is gonna make my stomach rotate. lols. so not going to skewl for a day dont hurt? gee. i hate NOT going to skewl. there are like soooo many disadvantages to it. gramms nagging like hell until the whole house is gonna collapse. i wont be able to cope with skool work. like gee sey. im a slow learner ok! one day missed, thats it. gonna need help from teachers olready. gosh. gee. im stress larh sey. like.. WTH?? i know many of us go through this process while growing up, well, who doesnt?? right? but.. sighs. i just cant take it anymore sey. im waayyy too tired. tired of all this bull****!! grrr. i wanna pass my MYE!! well, who doesnt?? but once again, im scared. i donno why. so dont bother asking. GEE. i want my angels! here with me! gee. i missed them sey. three days of not seeing them is like hell. gosh. RUBY MISS KIDD, LYNN AND EJ SEY!! sighs. huggies tomorrow, gerls?

"pop princess...." - she said.

study-date with nisa. zura was there too. nisa is as always, the cutie joker. lol. i love herr larhs. did some Amath homework. after that explain some math to nisa. after we finished, went home. i saw suhaiman. ex-mate from greenridge pri. i didnt noticed him at first. then he called me. i was damn blurr. i asked if i knew him. and who is he. then he said forget huh? then nvm. lol. i recalled and recalled. his face looked familiar. and i said, suhaiman. then he said yarr. lols. its nice to have bumped into him. he's sooo friendly even thought we've been years apart. but yea, he's cool. lols. we said our byes and yea. hees. btw i saw him before i met nisa, not when im on my way home. hehe. reached library and i went outside starbucks as nuraida wanna give me somfin'. she gave me a nice puma 'slip-in' file and a 'name-nana' keychain. like gee larh sey. haha. its sooo nice and i like it! thanks aida! sooo thoughtful. haha. and yea, I TERRIBLY NEED HELP WITH MY SCIENCE(s) LARH!! grrr. ouh well, will go bully that cuzzin of mine and ask him to teach me or else i'll kick his arse! lol. opps. haha. okok. i gtg now. everyone is LOVED.

"nobody wanna see us together, but it dont matter, NO. cause i got you." - she said.

study-date with my angels are postponed. but thats ok. watched 'confession of a teenage drama queen'. i remembered watching it before. the show's great. its about a gerl, loila, who was looked down upon by her new mates at herr new skewl. gee. that must be hard to cope. but she's a strong gerl who overcome it. herr dream is to be a great actor or playing a role in a drama. she even die-die wanna meet herr favourite singer. gee. and she did. but herr new skewl mate doesnt believe herr. gosh its a long story. go check out yourself at youtube. im sure you'll enjoy it. in a meanwhile, enjoy the song! =)

my homework is yet to be done. gee. thats a whole lot of it. hope i can finish it by tonight. i TERRIBLY need help with my SCIENCE(s)!! sheesh. okok. i gtg now. my gerlfys and angels are deeply LOVED and APPRECIATED.

Sunday, April 22, 2007.

"and it would be you." - she said.

study date with gerlfy w/o anim and mirr. i completed my CA3 and CA4 for m AMath. but i didnt manage to finish any other homeworks. gee. what a waste. but thats ok. im gonna finish it tomorrow prolly after skool. well, i've been stress lately. and i've been cying alot lately. gee. im terribly stress. i need to talk things out to my angels. i need them. i really do. they are the one who makes me gain my confidents back. gosh. thanks EJ, KiDd, Lynn. i love you gerls. i really do. saw uncle zai, faiz, and faris. in the bp library. and then saw uncle mim and fam outside sakura. me and gerlfy studied outside starbucks. i bought chocolate like i always did. its my favourite. gee. im all alone at home now. mom and dad went out. sofie went for some 'gig'. lin and shasha went to aunt's house and sleepover there. so yea.. i feel great. having the house all to myself. but yea, they'll be home soon. mom and dad that is. but i think sofie's gonna be late coz its 'gig' larh people. lol. ok. i terribly need help with my science(s)!!

Saturday, April 21, 2007.

'must it always be like this?' - she said.

broke down again before skool actually starts. like gee larh. sheesh. but there's gerlfriends who always comfort me in the morn. thanks gerls. and yea, like at last. gotten huggie from suhailah before assembly. first two period was P.E. and we did our 5 stations. and my stamina decreased. i used to do quite well. well, not so well. but quite well. gee. i almost fail every stations. after P.E. was eng. and we did some summary. after that is geog. test! test! like gee larh sey. i didnt even bother to revise or take a look at the book. i just borrowed hanim's textbook this morning and run through withour reading it. lol. recess hugged ej and kiDd which actually made me feel much better sey. thanks gerls. and then math. graphs and function can be understanded. but its quite confusing at times.

to kiDd:
gerl, ej told me about your dad. gee. that hurt, aint it? you have me baby. you have ej and lynn. you have us. dont you worry sweetie. i have you, i know. i love you kiDd. i really do. you take care and smile like you always do oks? thanks for being sooo concern for me. ILY, kiDd.

to Ej & Lynn:
gerls, i hve you now, dont i? i love you gerls larh. thanks. thanks ej for the huggs. thanks lynn for listening via SMS. gerls day out sometimes, perhaps? hees. and if you gerls have anything to share or to talk about, im here. you'll always have me. LOVE YOU ANGELS!

if im ever feeling down, i have my three angels. and they're especially LOVED by me.

I lost myself at your show last night
looking at the sparkling eyes
in the middle of a fresher crowd
you keep living like you're a movie star
but tell me who you really are

when the lights go down
baby your a glitter doll
on the radioi dissolve
in the stereo
you've got me
you've got me coming back for more

pop princess hold my hand
pop princess I'm a fan
pop princess I need you now
freak me out turn me upside down
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess I need you now

So baby turn your love up loud
You were hiding in a darkened stall
waiting on your curtain call
getting your piece of mind
but I was looking past the glossy stare
I knew who was really there
and I'd like to spend some time

baby your a glitter doll
on the radioi dissolve
in the stereo
you've got me
you've got me coming back for more

pop princess hold my hand
pop princess I'm a fan
pop princess I need you now
freak me out turn me upside down
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess I need you now

So baby turn your love up loud
Baby girl I think you're radical
but you're a star and I'm fanatical
can we start something new
just between me and you

Pop princess hold my hand
pop princess I'm a fan
pop princess I need you now
freak me out turn me upside down
pop princess make me smile
pop princess drive me wild
pop princess I need you now

So baby turn your love up loud
pop princess ohh
pop princess ohh
So baby turn your love up loud
pop princess ohhpop princess ohh
Baby turn your love up loud
pop princess ohh
pop princess ohh
So baby turn your love up loud
pop princess I need you now
So baby turn your love up loud

Thursday, April 19, 2007.

'gee. she's being so unfair.' - she said.

skool was as per normal. had math ACT today. and the lesson was like WTH? i mean. the speaker came and ask us to do a number of Qs. ok. fair enough, we did. then after a while, he wrote the solution together with the answer on the board. and suhairi asked if he would explain er nat. he just said; you could refer to your note if you dont undertsand. like hell sia! he was paid to coach us, but he sat there and shook his freaking leg. you old hag! grrr. waste my time. but yea, after ACT, went to canteen as gerlfys were waiting. and saw rosa and nadhirr doing Amath. rosa invite me do with them even though we were a few inch apart. lol. i love herr larh. i really do. after that went home and fetch imann. as i was waiting fer him, sms-ed lynn. and told herr that 'shes' being unfair to me. and lynn advised me and all. thanks lynn. gotten a hugg from kiDd which is fully appreciated by me. rosa? hugg tomorrow?? LOVED.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007.

i've not been myself lately. gee. i donno. im sick. physically and mentally sick. get it? im heading towards too much stress til my head is gonna like.. explode soon. decided to go for HNF and check out whats the schedule and everything. and first person to receive my hugg was afiqah. gee. she knows how to comfort people, doesnt she? and then ran a few rounds and we were asked to stop.
lesson's were as per normal. bored. not all were as bored. but prolly most of 'em. im getting soo confused in maths nowadays. like gee larh. and i certainly need help with my science(s). sighs. bio is confusing. chem is on and off. physics is wayy toooo fast. gee. i seriously need help. help anyone? sigh. and yea, gotten hugg from huda during malay. gosh. haha. its always fun joking around with herr, right gerls? lol. im like, soo in love with e2 gerls larh. nadhirah is always loved with herr jokes and laughters. naz ia sucha nice gerl. nisah is always sweet. laila is one funny gerl who keeps me laughing like gee. haha. seriously, i love them. i really do. thanks gerls. and yea, i love rosa. thanks rosa. for the huggs and all. you will run with me, wont you? and you're loved.
until today, there's no 'light'. not even a sign. gee. im getting worried. am i really sick? coz all this illness i've been having quite a while is really like soo un-bearable. gosh. sms-ed lynn when i returned home. she advised me and all. coz i donn who else to turn to other than herr. i love herr. i know that im not alone in this freaking world. i have herr. i have ej and kiDd. i have my gerls. gee, thanks gerlfriends! i really love ya'll countlessly. LOVED.
and to rosa, you have to be strong, and we know, that you are strong deep inside. where's the rosa who used to be sooo hyper-active that is happy-go-lucky?? we want that rosa. no more swallon here and there larh gerl. we love you, and yes, you have us ok? me loves you rosa.
and not forgetting nisa, you're sucha sweet gerl who you're loved by someone call 'me'. stay happie as you have us too olright? LOVES.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007.

gee. i broke down even before skool actually starts. i donno why. and hanim actually comfort me during malay period. i love herr larhs. its actually the first time for herr comforting me when im in need. hees. and yea, during recess manage to hugg LYNN, kiDd and Ej. kiDd and Ej can actually can tell that i had just finished crying. and they comfort me and all. gee, thanks gerlfriends! and yea, i wanna write some meaningful msg to my gerls.

to LYNN:
dear sister, thanks for the hugg ok? and yea, its like wad you've said earlier. its been so long since we last get together. sighs. how much i've missed us talking and chatting together is like sooo countless. i love you. you have me now. and i know, i have you, right? its like.. you're giving me this opp to appreciate someone around me. thanks. you too cheer up oks? ILY. Y

to Ej:
you know wad? the first time we waved, i was soo in love with you. you had that friendly smile which kept me going on for a day or two. thanks. and you know that you have kiDd, you have LYNN. you have me. you have us. and yea, i donno how to comfort you or so, but one think for sure is, im always there for huggs. LOVED.

to KiDd:
its like, we just knew one another, and there's like so much love between us..? gee. i love you larh, kiDd! your huggs are like soo comforting. thanks. and yea, i did cried just now. but i didnt feel any better somehow. but gee, im always here for you. you can have a million of huggs for all i care. so long as you're happy. LOVES.

thanks gerls. we should have a gerls day out, like shouldn't we? gosh. my love towards you gerls are soo countless. i know. you gerls cheer up and i'll do my very best not to think too much ya?

skool was as per normal today. second period was chem. was doing fine. can cope with the lesson. after chem was math. head crack here and there like gee. malay was when hanim asked if i was olright. and i told herr that i missed late. that wasnt actually why i broke down. its because that i donno what to say to herr. but anyways, thanks for comforting me, gerlfriend. after malay was recess and i getto hugg LYNN, kiDd, and Ej. after that was bio and followed by SS. soon after which we had english. ms J always rock our study larh. jokes here and there. laughters here and there. was being grouped. i sat with rosa. and she said she'll run with me on fri. gee, thanks. I LOVE YOU, ROSA. and yea, after eng was ACT. usual speaker wasnt here. the relief was not half as babd as the usual speaker. lol. ok then. im tired. NIGHTS!

Monday, April 16, 2007.

four post in a row? gee. im berserk or what? chatting with kiDd right now. gosh. she make me wanna cry. like.. i love herr sey. i cant wait for tomorrow. i know what you people might be thinking. that im looking forward for ACT huh? nopes. im looking forward to recess. got something goin' on. i donno why everytime i have those feelings, i'll eventually broke down. like gee larh. i miss gramps. i really do.sheesh. i have that feelings again. okok. to not making you people mixed up, i have this feelings. being LONELY. i know. like what kiDd said, im not. but how can i have that feelings? gee. i feel like a fool. i need LYNN. i need kiDd. i need someone. GEE.

Real Love
Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
and plus i'm fellin runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Baby I was there all alone
When you'd be doin things i would watch you
I picture you and me all alone
I'm wishing you was someone i can talk to
I gotta get you outta my head
But baby girl I gotta see you once again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
and plus i'm feelin runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Every night and now when I would go to sleep
I couldn't stop dreaming about you
Your love has got me feeling kinda weak
I really can't see me without you
And now you're runnin round in my head
I'm never gonna let you slip away again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Every now and then when I watch you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk wit cha
If I could have the chance to walk wit cha
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
and plus i'm feelin runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Today when I saw you alone
I knew I had to come up and approach you
Cuz girl I really gotta let you know
All about the things you made me go through
And now she lookin at me in the eye
And now you got me hopin I ain't dreamin again, Again
It's real love that you don't know about

Every now and then when I watch you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk wit cha
If I could have the chance to walk wit cha
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
and plus i'm feelin runnin outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

You're the one that I want and no one can take
It from me
No, no, no, no, no
Even though I don't really know you
I got a lot of love I wanna show you
And you'd be right there in front of me
I see you passin in front of me
No, no
Girl I need your love
Baby I need your love

Labels: real love.

today is really not a good day. dad was late to pick us up sending us to religious class. and so, he picked us up at 8 sharp, where it is exactly starts. on the way there, mum and daadee was in total silence. daadee speed up. we eneded up around 8.30. yeapp. enters class with greetings and 'uztadzah' [female-teacher in arab] asked why i was late. haha. was so paisey. then after class, daadee fetch us and when fer our lunch at banquet [greenridge]. lin was being soo pathetic. just like wanna slap herr face. being 'idiotic' is herr nature. grrr. but i cool it and everything was fine. haha. trynah control my temper. she's like ggaahhh at times. sheesh. okok. still have some homeworks not done yet. taggies will be replied here;

Ej: hees. yeapps. it is meaningful olright. and yea, i have you now, you have me too, ok? LOVES.
Farlini: ouh i will, i will hugg you a million times!! =)
Nisa: thanks nisa. i love you ok? you have me too now. LOVED.
Doodie: heys. i love you too.
Athirr: hello! haha. yeapps. thanks fer reading then! :P

P.S: i love you gerls like many the many2 larh!

Sunday, April 15, 2007.

im being so thankful that i have caring people around me. and so to say, i have my gerlfriends. that includes my sec 4 friends. i love them. i have them. thanks ya'll. and i miss hugging farlini. everytime i saw herr and i forgot to hugg herr. maybe i was too focused on my new friends. sorry, sis. and ej, im sorry i didnt hugg you too knowing that you too have your own prob. and i think i was too focused on kiDd too. and i dont want to neglect gerlfys because i have new friends.

i love gerlfys. i really do. i feel like hugging iida now. iida, if you're reading this, you should know, that i love you sweetie. athirr, me hearts you ok? mirr, ahah! you're one gerl who love challenges. LOVED. anim?? you bad bad gerl dont like hugg! but i still love you like mad ok? ej? i love you too. ok? i have you, yes. and you have me, dont forget that. kiDd, you have your gerlfriends. you have me. you can hugg me for a million time for all i care. i love you ok?

but the biggest subject here is, i know everyone have their own problem. but so am i..?? i wanna share it with someone. someone different maybe? maybe different from gerlfys? they have heard enough of my probs. i dont want them to worry bout me anymore. and i wanna try sharing it with someone to see if it helps. coz i f you guys wanna know, sharing with different people can help. different people have different advise you see. therefore, im trynah find someone else to talk to. was considering sis. but she has her own prob. gee. i love you gerls. bear that in mind. LOVED.

gee. i almost forgot about suhailah. i love you, can? you have me too you know. but when we see each other we're like.. just wave or say 'hi'.. we should hugg you know?? and yea, ferst hugg was for my birthday. thanks. and i have you, right? LOVES.

gosh i forgot one VIP. the very VERY important person. NISA. i love you? NISA, thanks for being there for me. like gee, i cant show how much appreciation i have. thanks. ROSA, i love you ok? you have me too. and i have you i know. thanks for the huggs. LOVED.

its a success!! haha. i changed my own skin! haha. thanks iida for the right direction! i love you!! and yea, rosa, i love you lots. thanks for being there.. like gosh. its countless appreciation, babe. and yea, i have you. THANKS. ♥ i'll be there for you too, gorgeous! =) and yea, today didnt went out. was sooo tired. okok. gtg now. i love PEN!! woots! im LOOSE. nyaha!~

it sux though but when you put a pacifier in it, it sux even more;
- RubyoL___*

feels like changing of skin sey.

Saturday, April 14, 2007.

this vedio is like sooo touching.. its a vedio from parent trap. where the twins end up together again. and they brought back their parents together. sorry i cant find the full vedio. but i'll keep trying. meanwhile, ENJOY! Y

'it sux but when you put a pacifier in it, it sux even more.'; qouted this from dear teacher.

and today went smoothly like normal fridays.
ferst two periods was P.E.
had a run through test for 2.4.
as usual, i failed.

and i cried.
deep inside.
along the run, naz, fifi, laila, veron and nisah
touch me.

gee. that sound so wrong.
NO, wait. they tap me.
haha. yea, thats it.
they tap me.

thats so toucing.
it touched my heart.
eun jin can pass..
why cant i?

its not that i dont want to.
but i cant.
wait, that sounds wrong, AGAIN.
its not that i cant.

i donno whats been stopping me.
but.. i remembered, last year, HNF mr maran run with me a few rounds w/o stopping.
and how cool is that?
therefore, i dont dare say i cant run w/o stopping.

and mr ong said he'll help me pass.
he'll run with me prolly.
yea, thats nice.
HE IS NICE.

he is one teacher who i've been talking to soo far.
and i have rosa now.
one additional love.
LOVED.

after P.E. was english..
went to AVA.
watched some pictures of teacher and friends took at old changi hosp.
yea, we freaked out!

after english was geog.
miss sitting beside terence.
how sad.
therefore he sat beside me just now. like ferst come ferst serve like that. haha.

after that was recess and we ate 'weiges' [like is that how you spell it??] that she brought from home.
how nice. hees.
okok.

to kiDd;
you have me. you have EJ. you have iten. you have us. we can listen to whatever that's been bugging you, dear. we love you. share it with us anytime ya..? i know how life is.. its soooo un-bearable. but thats how god wants it to be, so we hafta be patient and bear with it, am i right? just cheer up and you have me 24/7 oks? i love you kiDd. we love you. LOVED.

to rosa;
it touches deep into my heart to have been hugging you. thanks. but it also hurts to see you all down and 'eyes swallon' early in the morn. you have huda, you have me. you have us. and i have you, right? thanks rosa, for being there for me, and also for the huggs. i love you, gorgeous.

and here, i'll end with a note.
take care, gbye.

Friday, April 13, 2007.

'i loves huda and rosa more.. like.. now..' she said.

today went fine.
but.. MATH and PHYSICS i was like..
GEE.
haha.

nothing really was absorbed larh.
OWTH..?!? hees.
today was actually quite a day.
but tomorrow is another day.

gotten a hugg from dear rosa.
gosh i love herr even more.
like i wanna hugg her again.
=) thanks rosa!

and huda.. HAHA..!!
'I SAW THAT!' i said. LOLs.
so funny yet so cute larh this one particular gerl!
GEE. haha.

hmm.
i love hilly.
i love rosa cum hudzie. LOLs.
i love iids.
i love NISA.
i love gerlfys.
i love LYnN.
i love suhailah.
i love EJ.
i love KiDd.
i love deeeee.
i love SOFIE.
i love you all larh! =)

Thursday, April 12, 2007.

'im loving the stationary gerls..!!'; she said.

today went fine.
had laughings as usual when athirr is around.
stayed back after skool.went to the lib.
did some homeworksas i know at home i cant be concentrated.

haha.
LOLs.
okok.

i wanna let everyone know how much gerlfys mean to me.
how much EACH of them mean to me.
i love athirr. i love iids.
i love mirr. and i love anim.

i hearts you all.
and i cant bear to hurt ya'll.
im sorry mirr if i ever did hurt you in any way.
i really am.

i love you, ok..??
I LOVE DOODIE now.
=)

Tuesday, April 10, 2007.

didnt went for ACT instead, go and make my IC.
soo mah-fann!! grr..
queue here queue there..
luckily everything can be done by today.

after that went home.
and i returned home around 7-7.15pm.
skool was such a bore.
bio and chem which i cant stand the most.

its not the lesson that sucks.
but the subject is such a bore that i kept yawning.
shhhh..!!
i don wanna get caught!!

talking about having a responsibilities about a child..
SKIPP!!
sighhs..
i've not been having my normal 'lights' for months.

even mom and gramms says im sick.
even friends advise me to visit the docs.
mom noticed that i've not been eating much.
and i've gained weight!!!

arrggghhh..!!
like shit larh..
wadever it is, i think im damn sick.
soo.. yea.. everythings cool.

im watching you passing me by..

Monday, April 09, 2007.

mother, gramms, teacher, friends..
all have given me the same respond.
is to 'see a doctor'.
sighhss.

sometimes i wonder.
will get any better?
or will it just go werst?
gosh.

how i wish someone could answer that Q.
im just too tired.
too tired of bearing the pain like, GEE.
sighhs.

and i've been wondering too much..
prolly i should just stop wondering..??
life has been.. well, i cant use the werd unfair..
coz thats how god[ALLAH] wants it to be.

its just that..
life has been sooo un-bearable.
i guess..??
gosh.

will my friends understand my situation..?
when my own family dont?

sometimes she wonders..

Sunday, April 08, 2007.

having 'kenduri' [malay-prayers-ceremony] later on after maghrib.
such a bore for not going out today.
but at the same time, i really cannot go out due to my weakness.
i donno why but im just.. like.. tired?? i guess??

haha.
thats me!
LOLs.
okok. CRAPZZ..!!

and so, uncles and aunties will be here later..
and i hafta tidy up my room.
lucky for me i clean up the mess ytd.
haa.

i miss chatting with hilary.
wonder why she didnt respond when she's online.
she's been online but didnt respond.
weird.

i sense that something is wrong.
hilly babe, if only you knew i felt as lonely for not chatting for you.
you know how much i miss chatting with ya?
sigghhss.

wadever it is, stay strong gerl.
im always here[in spore] for you babe.
gee, im bored.
reply my msges will ya?

gosh, now i have that feeling again.
the feeling of loneliness.
its like, i need nisa.
but, wad am i gonna say to herr?

that i feel lonely?
thats bull****!!
WTH??
im feeling lonely..??

i have that feeling but im not lonely..
gee im talking crapp again.
just pardon me guys.
i feel like hell!

Friday, April 06, 2007.

some picxo of me and nisa, me and pooh,

and my prezzies. =)

gerls stuff i guess??

she LOVES it!~

THANKS NISA! Y

i love her, can?

thanks for the gifts, people! Y

the two of us, besties!

hearts herr! Y

picturing myself~

Thursday, April 05, 2007.

yesterday was a tring day.

thanks nadz for the mug.
PINK.
NICE.
hee.

and thanks syikeen for the 'princess' frame!!
i love it larh!!
i wanted it long ago!!
hees. LOVES.

after skool stayed back coz e2 wants to have lunch
with alex, yea, he's leaving s'pore already.
miss him? of coz.. NOT.
haha.

hmm.
anim and me actually plan to meet up
and finish our homework(s) by today.
so, lets just see how my day goes.

tomorrow thought of going sentosa with sofie's kicks
and some friends.
sat plan to go out with dear gerlfys
and meet up with princessJulz.

gee.
i miss herr.
haha.
but that gramm of mine.

said that we'll be having 'kenduri' on sat
and no one is allowed to go out.
HAH! FAT HOPE!
who cares?!? stop me if you can!! *sheesh*

all i gotta say is; 'i promised gerlfys, you dont like
people to go back on their words, DO YOU?'
haha. smart i shall say.
and we'll see if she dares stop me. HMPF!

and yea, ms shafiah is back!
she still remembers us.
gee.
thats touching. LOLs.

and guess what?
1e3' 05 plan to make a 'special' class-T.
woohhhooo!~
1e3' 05 rox larh! haha.

okok.
will upload some picxo soon.
yeehhhaaaaa!~

Tuesday, April 03, 2007.

today went fine.
had lessons as per normal.
receive some gifts from some loving people.
sooo touching larh.

mirr gave me 9 pieces of brownies.
baked by herself and iids.
thanks gerl!
hee. sooo touching yet sooo sweet.

next, suhailah gave me something.
i can sense its a chocolate cause the way
it feels like something's melting.
'setie-chocolate' katekan. haha. thanks suhailah!

and then, iids gave me another gift.
a small one yet meaningful yet damn touching.
hee.
I LOVE YOU LARH!! =)

then then..
hanisah gave me this 'starbucks' paper bag.
LOL.
i like the bag even tho thats not the gift.
haha. its a note and hp pouch in a box. thats sweet. thanks nisah.

then nisa gave me a 'famous-amous' cookies with the heart-shaped tin.
thats sweet nisa!
hee.
I LOVE NISA LIKE, CAN??

soon after recess i received a letter from
warm fuzzy of mine.
gosh.
its so sweet larhs.

after skool had ACT and as usual, end at 4pm.
like soo.. DUHH!!
after ACT me and nisa had lunch at sakura.
hee. damn hungry.

while eating, we talked about lots and lots of stuff.
something like that.
yea.
nisa is funn to be with larhs!

soon after we finished, walked around plaza.
and then head home.
once again,
thanks to;
suhailah, iids, mirr, hanisah, [warm fuzzy], and nisa for the gifts!
and huda, rosa, wei xuan, shakirin, joyce and others for the wishes!

i'll upload the pics some other time. =)
LOVES.

Sunday, April 01, 2007.

another outing to be cancelled.
outing with nisa that is.
*siighhhh..

today went fine.
but sadly, had to cancel my plans with LYNN and SUHAILAH.
gosh.
its ok, next time maybe??

and so, sofie invite me along to the movies at town.
along with sufyan and darius.
watched 'STOMP THE YARD!!'
how cool is that??

LOLs.
okok.
the show was great.
nice dance!! i loike!!

hmm..
after movie, walked around till bugis.
darius insist on walking from orchard to bugis street.
so yea.. we walked.

and guess wad?
we saw nuraida.
such a coincident larh!!
hee.

after that, went home, and here i am..
blogging away..
hee.
and.. yea.. im tired!!

taggies replies;
Gegerl & Feeqa: heyss.. thanks for the birthday wishes ya!! loved.
Suhailah: heyya! thanks for the wishes, and sorie to have cancel our plans.
Hanisah & Radiah: thanks thanks!! LOVES.
EJ: Eeee Jjjjj!! hee. I LOVE EJ LARHS, can? thanks for the wishes babe! <3
Cailing: hee. thanks gerl!

pics to be upload when im free!!
:P
and lastly;
im officially 15!! =)

Sister Dear,
rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr"its normal to broke down in tears when something like this happens. i know how it feels even though i've not been through it. i know he's caring, loving, humouress, and even honest. lik i said, he's honest; for telling you that there's no point in continuing..... and he even admit that he have some thing to attend to and to settled. so i guess he is being truthful and honest. in love, there are ups and downs. so you must bear the pain, sofie. tel me, is there any love that doesnt hurt? once you're at it, you've gotta sacrifise and take the full responsibility to love that someone. so if you get wad i mean.. cheer up and at it aite! im sure wad he needs is a little more time and space thats all.. STAY STRONG SISTER!"

thats wad spoil my birthday mood.
sheesh.
well, sofie's my siste after all and i dont like seing herr sooo 'dead'..

thanks nisa, mirr, iids, aida, masyitah, azlin, nadhirah, nadz, gegerl, Ej, KiDd, zahida,
mummy, nann, rose, rosa, naqq, hanim, suhailah, LYNN, afiq[friend] and not forgetting,
SOFIE sister dear for the birthday wishes!!
LOVEs!! <3

a big HAPPIE 15TH BIRTHDAY to ruby!!

yeehaaa!~

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