I kept wondering again and again how it all started, when in the end its so obvious to how this had actually took place. The fasting month is the main reason behind all this. The holy-month of Islam is actually related to whatever misunderstanding is happening between us. No, I am not putting the blame on the fasting month, God I'd be stupid to do something like that. Blaming a specific month for such misunderstanding? What Im trying to say here is. Its because of the month of Ramadhan that all this started, still, not being stupid to blame the holy-month itself. I started it. I started everything without realising I would somehow end up hurting someone else. Maybe it all happened on this month for some reason. Cause, as you know, the month of Ramadhan is also the time where Muslims have to be patience towards one another and any obstacles that passes by. Overcome fear and stays strong. Yeaa, maybe thats it. Maybe its a test for me that it all happened during this time of the year. I wont whine, neither would I complain. Wouldnt dare.
Now that everything is settled between the other two party, can I make this clear by asking if everything between us all together is ok now? Or you'e still upset and disappointed with me. I know the disappointment remains cause hey, you disappointed me once too. No, wait. Not once. Countless times. I probably shouldnt have brought this up. Skip! So yes, I really want to know if there's anything else that the party involves are not happy with and we could all talk about it slowly, steadily and calmly. Please do tell me. Im confused. I know I dont have the right to whine and complaint about the mess Im in. But seriously, how am I to know if everythings alright when all you do is turning the table around and making things complicated? And again, not refering to particularly anyone. Lets get this done and over with as soon as possible. I cant help seeing things left hanging around. Things'll get worst, you never know. You just never know.
Khai claimed that everythings fine between him and Ira already. Im glad for the both of them. I seriously am. See me smiling now? [I know I know, stupid question. Hahaha!] But its the thing between me and Ira. Are things stable now without us having the chance to sit and talk about it? Personally, and of cause, no interference? Or is it still shaking? Im not even sure myself. Cause at one point time, you were mad at me. Throwing all harsh words directly in my face. And the next, you were all soft again, saying nice things. Tell me, how am I not supposed to be in a state of confusion? If I should know if everything is not alright, it should be now. Seriously, Im tired of this too. Im exhausted from dealing with the mess I brought upon myself and others. So its no use complaining. No rights to complain either. Im only asking for a nice chat over this. Again, I'll emphasize on this. No interference. No, Im not scared neither am I afraid of what others have to say about this. Getting the facts right is the first priority now. The only priority, that is. I really hope that things will be the same as before even tho there's a big probability that it might not. Sighs.
I never wished for any of this to happen. No one did. It took place out of a sudden. I cant help but to blame myself to have made a mess in other people's happiness. See, Im back at it again. Stop thinking too much, Marlie! Everything's goina be fine, if you just think positive for now. Insya'Allah. I'll put this aside and wont entertain whatever obstacles that is coming my way. Instead, I will do my best to overcome these obstacles that tries to bring me down at this time of the year. Where its near to the crucial time already. Cause nothing, and I mean nothing, is going to stop me from being prepared for my major examinations. Maybe I should emphasize on the nothing this time. Thinking again, Im sure you readers get what I mean. Hehh. Okayy thats it, Marlie. One step at a time now. No turning back. Keep going. Going the right way, towards O Levels. Jiayou, Marlie! =D
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Happy 16th Birthday, Nurhuda Bte Baharudin!
May you have a brighter future ahead of you that is full of happiness.
May you succeed in life.
May you achieve your goals and dreams.
May your wishes come true.
Wishing you all the best in life.
And the best of luck for the remaining Prelims papers,
and definitely, for your O Levels too, babygirl!
Dont fail to keep smiling, Huda!
And I want to thankyou for listening to me whining.
I dno how you did it, but I bore people with my whine easily. XP
And remember Huda, you were there for me, Im glad to be here for you too.
I feel so blessed and grateful having a wonderful classmate like you,
from the bottom of my heart k girl. =DLoveyou for your sincerity in wanting to listen to me.
Best wishes and take care.
With much loves,
Bob [Marlie].
(K it took me a lot of courage to type this name ok.
For the sake of my classmates for calling me that. Hahaha!)
