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Monday, September 15, 2008.
I've been deleting a number of published entries recently and typed a whole new one all over again. Thats 'cause when I was typing my thoughts down, I wasnt actually thinking straight. I jotted down whatever thing that came across my mind. Worst still, most of the entries deleted were written while I was crying. So go figure.
I shed some unworthy tears again today. But why does it have to be in school, in the examination hall, just before morning assembly? Huda saw me entering the hall with teary eyes. At that point of time, I havent started crying yet. Just some dust particles had gotten into my eyes. O.o Faaaake! Hahahaa. Ok ok, seriously, my eyes were teary only. When she saw and knew what was going to happen next, she asked, "God Marlie are you ok?" or something like that uhh. I dont want to break down in front of her so I hugged her and said, "Your huggy, as promised." 'Cause I owe her one for her belated sweet 16th. Then, came the harder part. While hugging, my tears gave away. They just scroll down my cheeks like nobody's business. Luckily I wasnt sobbing like a baby. Hehh. Huda asked me to go to the ladies after the morning assembly.
I wont elaborate what happens next. All I know is Im not as strong as I used to be. Im weak now. Weaker than I was before. Every night, I thought I was atmy weakest moment. Only to know that the next night happens to be worst. Weaker still. I never knew I could be this weak. 'Cause I know myself very well that no matter how hard I tried holding back these never ending tears, it'll somehow manage to roll down the cheeks one way or the other. I never have the chance to prove myself that I'd be strong. That its not the end of everything. Not just yet. Sighs. Why now? Again, that question. Fasting month laa dengs! Testing your patience and everything. Im tired of whining. And Im still doing it. Heck.
I just ended a convo with Nyna on MSN. God I never knew I could share a lot with her for the first time of sharing. Hahaha! Cheer ups k Nyns! *Sorry bout that. I have a habit of altering ppl's name. Ouch!* Im here if you feel like talking to me again alrights. Dont think too much now. Hmmmm. That sounds weird. Its like an advice for myself too. O.o Hahahaa! Marlie Marlie. Tsk. No more being a weak child now, Marlie. You know you gotta be and stay strong no matter what. Its a matter of believing in yourself and keep believing. Lets pray that everything will turn out fine sooner or later k, hopefully. Insya'Allah (: K so dengs is already stuck in my head thanks to someone uhh. xP
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