2008 is just a few days away. I cant seem to leave 2007 and step into the new year.
I have mixed feeling. Happy, coz Im growing into a mature young lady. Also
that I make it to sec 4 exp. Sad as there are sooo much bad memories yet to be
heal. Scared, afraid, frightened. All those described why Im not ready for a new year.
Its the examination year. The BIG examination year. I have to pull up my socks.
I cant slack around anymore. No more late night TV shows. No more hanging out.
No more this and that. I'll have to buck up. No more of those rubbish.
I'll have to buck up. C'mon Marlie! Im sure you can do it! Go for it!
I still have months to get myself prepared. But the thing is, I am sooooo
confused of to whether I wanna drop my P.Bio or not. I cant make up my
mind for now. I really cant. There's too much thinking and questions being asked
when I think about it. I need help. I really do. Fatin said ifI feel like dropping, I should
drop. Maybe its better that way. Gosh. I really cant decide. But when I heard people
are dropping, its as if they're encouraging me to drop. And I feel like dropping.
OMG. I terribly need advice, help, anything I can get. Fuzzlee? Zatie?
Advice? Need help here. What if sitting for the paper only appears to be tough.
But its actually as easy as sitting down, pick up a pen or a pencil and start
writing..? Yea, here I go again. Hilly said stop with the "ifs". Its a waste of time
wondering bout the "ifs. Okayy, this is where I'll start thinking of the positives.
I'll close my eyes and daydream. That Im sitting for the papers in the examination
hall, and its as easy as that. Skip!
Finished up what we were supposed to finish up today. Decorating the Malayroom.
Have to admit its a little colourful now even if I do say so myself. Hahaha.
We had fun staple-ing, talking, laughing, joking. And I missed something which
is soooo important to us gerls. Camwhoring. Hahaha. Our all-time favourites.
Okayy. Apology to this two people. Athira and Shahiddin coz
I sooo forgot to put you guys in my previous post.
You guys mean alooot to me like the others do.
You managed to cheer me up no matter what.
Thanks. Thanks for making my day.
Thanks for listening Dino. And being there when Im in need.
And you musnt let other's words about you ruin your life.
Life has to go on right?
And Athirr, ILY babe!
Hahaha.
See you guys soon aite.
Goooodbye!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007.
"Live every second like it was my last one.." - she said.
This is going to be a long hell of a post.
Hahahah!
I love my friends. Alooooot.
Syuhaidah. Amira. Nisa. Hanim. Nadzirah.
Zatie. Fatin. SOFIE. Hijjah. Farlini.
Izni. Hidayah. Sulastri. Nuraini. Hilary.
To Syuhaidah:
Im sorry if I've been neglecting you.
Ever since we separated classes, I dont feel the bond anymore.
The bond that used to be very strong.
But after we had the talk, I feel very confident now.
That our friendship can go way further than this.
I care for you and you know that. You've listened to me when I needed you.
Thank you for your companion all this while.
ILY Syuuu! <3
To Amira:
I love you, beyotch! I really do.
You can share things with me, I like that.
You love being honest no matter what. You've been hearing me out too.
Thanks for listening and sharing and trusting me
again after what I did to you.
A thousand thanks to you hunney.
ILY Mirr! =)
To Nisa:
We've been friends what, since primary school..?
So we should have known each other well by now.
We shared alot too yaw. Clothes? Shoes? Hahah.
It was nice of you to lend me stuffs like that.
I love to be with you Nisa.
I just happened to love having you around.
Love your companion alot. Your laughter made my day.
Thank you Nisa for making my day.
ILY Nisa! ^^
To Hanim:
Hanim! IMY soooo fucking much!
Okayy so we've met before nessary..?
Hahaha. Sooo tiny yo! What, since we were 3..?
I guess. I sooo love you more and more as days goes by.
Thanks for standing by me all this years.
Thanks for trusting me.
Thanks for tolerating with me all this years. Hahaha!
Okayy, you've been the bestest of the best that I can ask for.
Happy 14th year of friendship, Hanim!
ILY! <3
To Nadzirah:
You're one special friend.
Helped me aloooot.
My listening ears too.
ILY Nadz! =D
To Zatie:
You are very very appreciated larh you cute arse!
Haha. Thanks for all your advice there.
Its a pleasure to meet someone like you.
Hope to hang out with you someday..?
And yarr, thanks for being my friend.
ILY Zatie! ^^
To Fatin:
Another pair of listening ears.
A very very unique friend.
Thank you for listening and sharing Kidd!
And thank you for trusting me.
And for the friendship that the both of us has build.
Will treasure it well.
Thanks for everything, BEK!
ILY KiDd! =)
To SOFIE:
OMFG!
I swear you're my bestest sister ever larh Sofie!
Thanks for the everything that made you my fucking
gorgeous sister! I sooooo appreciate it!
ILY to the max siaa!
Hahahaha. <3
To Hijjah:
You are very sweet larh Ej!
Very very very sweet. Haha.
My listening ears too. Thanks for being there for me.
And the friendship. Will treasure it like I treasure Kidd's.
You gerls rock my undies siaaa. Lol.
ILY EJ! :D
To Farlini:
My best friend/godsister.
Thanks for listening. I mean it. You've seen me cry.
So embarrassing siaaa. Hahaha. And thanks for being there
for me too. I cant imagine being w/o you.
ILY Farlini! <3
To Izni:
My 'common' friend. Haha. We shared one particular thing.
That no one is suppose to know. Right Izni?
Lol. I love it. Love your companion.
Love our friendship.
ILY Izni! =)
To Hidayah:
Chocolate love Cherry very very muchie, can? Haha.
You are loved.
I find you very unique.
Coz you're not shy to new new and older friends.
Hahaha. Yarr, shy for what right? Lol.
ILY Gegerl! =D
To Sulastri:
My friend, sister, neighbour.
Love your companion. Very very much.
ILY Sulastri! ^^
To Nuraini:
Ninie is very understanding ehk..?
Hahaha. Okayy, that, Im not sure arh.
I just love hanging out with you.
The cute, shy-shy gerl.
ILY Ninie! =)
To Hilary:
Ahhhh. My trusted listening ears. Hahaha.
Come Singapore! I wanna see the bubz! Lol.
And I wanna meet you too yo! =D
Okayy, you've listened to me.
Thanks Hilly.
Errr, can I love you too? *lmfao* ^^
Im very happy today.
One of the reasons is that Im in good terms with my gerlfy again.
And I hope it'll stay that way.
It was dumb of me not to realise how a nice convo can make our friendship
grow even better. Im happy. Just plain happy.
Dont even bother to ask why.
Im happy to be surrounded with a bunch of great friends.
FullStop.
Saturday, December 15, 2007.
Hilly words had been playing around in my head over and over again.
"Never thought about "if's". You're just wasting your time."
Im very much awake now. Awaken by the words. The words by a friend who lives miles
and miles away from me. Whom I havent met in my life time.
Why does she understand me so much?
Why dont my friends.. My close friends understand me.
And Sofie's words this morning awakes me too.
"Make them understand you. Or else they never will."
Gosh. I've been too busy with the "if's" wondering and too busy taking
care of other people's feeling. That I dont have time for myself.
I dont have time to take care and consider my own feelings.
Why? Why dont people stop putting all the blame on me?
Am I fully responsible for this shit?
Its your fault that it turn out this way. And you still have the nerve to
push all the blame on me..?
Great! And friends dont suppose to lie you know.
Friends are suppose to share.
Friends are suppose to listen.
Friends are suppose to be honest.
Friends are suppose to trust.
Where are all this? I dont see this in you.
*Think about this for a minute.*
Thought enough? Have you ever wonder whether you're a great friend?
Im tired of all this shit.
Heck. Screw this.
Friday, December 07, 2007.
Why? Why are things turning out the way it is right now? People arent acting like people.
Friends arent acting like friends. I dont know who Im refering to arh.
I just dont want to spoil anyone's image. Im confused. Should friends turn out this way?
Is this the best I could be treated? What is the definition of friend?
No. I dont want to know the answer. Its painful to know coz there isnt anyone in
the whole wide world who is defined to the answer. Not that I know of.
All this while, I've been giving in. You should know by now how I hate hurting others
and see others get hurt. But instead, people doesnt notice how much they've hurt me.
Its like they see me when they wanna see me, and pretend I was invisible
if they dont wanna see me. I might be talking nonsense to certain of you, but hey, you
guys dont experienced what Im going through so you wont understand how I feel.
Day by day, I met different kinds of people, in fact all kinds of people.
But how come most love to think of themselves? Others have feelings too you know.
I've noticed something that no one.. Not even a soul.. Noticed.
I've been hurt by many who doesnt realised that they've hurt me.
I dont wish to name those few coz if I name 'em, it wont be that few and I'd
make the list as long as a 5 year old greedy boy writing a christmas list to Santa.
Im not saying that many people have been hurting me and Im seeking
sympathy.. Ouh, that is sooo not true. Im just.. Feel like I've been used.
I think I'll stop here coz I know there's no one reading and no one
interested anyway. So wth. Lemme just go soaked up in my pillow.
Im truly sad this time round.
Im not sure why.
Dear Allah, give me strength.
"when will I see your face again?" - she said.
I had a great time yesterday at Sentosa. A day well spent. With the lovely ladies from E4's.
Nisa, Izni, Syuhaidah and Irah. We were pissed off coz the rain just wont let up.
So we went ahead with our plans. To play with the water.. in the rain. Hahah.
I know Im very, very sensitive to rain. But trust me, I had tremedous fun yo. =D
We took this monorail which Izni insist it cost $15. Hahaha. Poor girl.
Its the cable car that costs $15 siaa. Lol. Okayy, forgiven larh Izni. *giggles*
And there's this guy at the last station of the monorail, I think it was the beach station,
who looked almost like Joel yo. Hahha. But that guy was way cuter. Hah.
Every one of us melted. *lmfao*
After that we had our late lunch/early dinner at the Vivo banquet. Shared fried kway
teow with Syuhaidah. Then we walked around and went into this shop called 'Zinc'.
And Nisa melt when she saw this cute guy. Haha.
Okayy so we walked and walked and walked, until we saw Imran Ajmain yaw. Hoho.
Tired. Went home larh.
What do you expect? =D
Today, will be going to school to finish decorating malay room.
So lets see how my day goes.
"Can we predict something bad will happen?"
Wednesday, December 05, 2007.
"you're so good to me.." - she said.
Three to four days in a row rotting at home yo. Boring. I wanna go out! Someone! Rescue
me! Hahaha. Okayy Marlie. Stop whining olready. Hahh. I miss Hanim. =(
In fact, Im missing my Ej, Lynn, Fatin, Nisa (even though we saw each other
a lot this hols.) Sighs. I think I'll stop here then. Knitting. (New pastime) =D
When you told me the good news about finding someone new, I was overwhelmed,
excited happy. Its as if I was the one who was attached. But when you told me you broke
up, my heart sank. Its as if I was the one who broke up. You see part of you are in
me now. I can feel you. So I know how you feel. Guys like him arh not worth crying for yo.
You're brilliant. There's plenty more fishes in the big big ocean.
I know you. Coz I've been living with you for the past 15 years and I hope our stay
together'll last long. "Life has to go on." I know this sentence is common
and just an excuse to keep living, but trust me, its the truth. Life HAS to go on
for you. Everyone's around to support you. Keep on going. I know you can do it baby.
Life's not that petty you know. And on this short (well.. not that short after all.. =D)
note, I'll take my leave and leave for you to think whats gonna happen next.
Good luck baby! =) Marlie.
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January
28th - Lee zara colleague
31st - Jacq L02baober cum pang ah lian
Febuary
12th - LATE ?
13th - Ammelia L02baober
23rd - Asidah L02baober cum cockuptwin
21th - Athirr gerlfys
24th - Nisa
March
1st - Mommy cum 'rents anni
2nd - Lala neighbour
11th - Ann kakak ;)
15th - Sufian chongkecik (upgrade)
18th - Phoebe L02
31st - Arziana twinny
31st - YOURS TRULY :DDD
April
17th - Cilong L02
26th - Amira gerlfys
29th - Poh Lay L02
May
16th - Ting Xin L02
26th - Shasha 2nd mei mei
31st - Guan Jie L02
June
16th - Hijjah ej love
24th - Nisah L02
26th - Kai Xin L02baober cum partner
27th - Ying Jie L02
30th - Sofie ? ta jie
30th - Shahiddin
July
5th - Syuuu gerlfys
7th - Shanky ;DDD
13th - Terence ;)))
August
7th - Farlini kak lynn love
14th - Sze Yee L02
19th - Afiqah L02baober cum kak iqah
20th - Kai Yun L02
26th - Keith L02
September
13th - Fatin kidd love
14th - Huda 4e2mate
20th - Yu Sheng L02
21st - Linn 1st mei mei
October
2nd - Derek L02
6th - Shiyi L02baober cum bestfriend
24th - Zura
26th - Gramma 66
November
17th - Hanim gerlfys cum bestie since 3 ;)
19th - Indra
December
12th - Michelle L02baober cum seashell
16th - Adina Tay Ah-Jie
2008 is just a few days away. I cant seem to leave 2007 and step into the new year.
"And I love this bitch." ^^
"I miss you, old friend." 
Nann had been telling mom off for me and sister's wrong doing.
